T.O.T.s

2006-12-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

hey.. it's been so long since my last update.

Decided i should write an entry for those frenz out there who bother to read and ask me to update. haha!

Life is beautiful. I feel so blessed that sometimes I wonder if I'm living in my own dream. haha! I thank God everyday for my loving family, you, my friends and I thank God that He is always with me.

Anyway, it's holiday for me now. And yes, end of the first semester. Scary huh... one moment I'm in uni trying to figure my way out, the next moment I completed a semester and already registered subjects for the next semester. It's going so fast! Sad thing is that i'll probably have to start the 'hi i'm seeleng' thingy the next semester again coz i figured the chance of having the same ppl in my class is quite small, not that i know everyone in my class. ha!

Alright... i shall stop now. bye!

2006-10-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

Cognitive dissonance, a concept developed by social psychologist Leon Festinger, is an individual's psychological discomfort caused by two inconsistent thoughts. According to the theory, we are likely to fell uneasy if we can't justify to ourselves the difference between what we believe and what we do. We can reduce congnitive dissonance in one of two general ways: change our attitudes or change our behaviours.

what will u change?

i chose behaviour.

2006-10-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

Sit still, my daughter! Just sit calmly still!

Nor deem these days -- these waiting days-- as ill!

The One who loves thee best, who plans thy way.

Hath not forgotten thy great need to-day!

And, if He waits, 'tis sure He waits to prove

To thee, His tender child, His heart's deep love.

Sit still, my daughter! Just sit calmly still!

Thou longest much to know thy dear Lord's will!

While anxious thoughts would almost steal their way

Corrodingly within, because of His delay --

Persuade thyself in simple faith to rest

That He, who knows and loves, will do the best.

Sit still, my daughter! Just sit calmly still!

Nor move one step, not even one, until

His way hath opened. Then, ah then, how sweet!

How glad thy heart, and then how swift thy feet.

Thy inner being then, ah then, how strong!

And waiting days not counted then too long.

Sit still, my daughter! Just sit calmly still!

What higher service could'st thou for Him fill?

'Tis hard! ah yes! But choicest things must cost!

for lack of losing all how much is lost!

'Tis hard, 'tis true! But then -- He giveth grace

To count the hardest spot the sweetest place.

J.danson Smith - extracted from 'Sit Still Until...'

2006-10-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

guess wat?!

christabel and kelvin passed their practical!! hahaz.. oh my...

not just merely passed... kelvin got a worthy merit, christabel missed by abit.

amazing isn't it? hahaz... i'm not that bad after all! ( i know must be humble.. let me feel good for d moment first)

now that will stop their mum from giving me the 'are u sure u can teach?' look. *grinz*

now at least i know i'm not such a lousy pok... got abit upset back then thinking how inexperienced i am, whether i should stop teaching in case i'm screwing those poor kids' music life.. hmm... at least now i can tell myself i can do it.

2006-10-05T20:11:00.000+08:00

october 5th 2005

i lost someone dear...

it doesn't even feel like it's been a year already.

hmmm....

sometimes i even forgot that he's gone...

let those around you know that they are loved coz you never know when u'll lose them.

2006-09-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

It has been a week since i last blogged. Or is it more than a week?

Last week was good. Not much to say though. Good time in school. Got to know my friends more. On top of that, I found one who can drive me to school. :)

Just now...

I climbed up a hill to that dumb place to hand in my form, then found out I will have to climb back there real soon to hand in my cheque. Yucks. The school should put a bus stop there man.

Made more friends in school. This is good. At least I will not be on my own. ha! Had lunch at Hall Four with my so called new friends. Three guys, one gal. Then went off for jap class. I was late. :p Mid-term jap test in two days' time. Got lots to read but yet I don't know where to start from. ha! i have to mug.

The next two days after this...

I have no school. Can stay home to catch up with my work. Read up. Learn those facts.

alright... im tired of talking with words that has only one syllabus... hahaz...

sayonara!

2006-09-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

konbanwa!

so fast it's coming to the end of the week.

man! and i didn't do much during this whole week.

mon: stucked in school. by the time i got home, i was too tired to do anything.

tues: went down to SEC to help update their database. mundane job, but well, at least im doing something to help them. afterall i volunteered. hahaz...

wed: great day!! hahaz... went down to church in the morning after receiving a msg from mel.. hahaz.. forgot all about it... helped aunty geok kim with her group... guess wat's her group? hahaz... HOPE! hahaz... anw... mel and i helped her.. so six kids to each of us.. the kids all so adorable. we fed the fish and terrapins, walked around orchid garden(it's beautiful!), did memory verse.. wonderful time there. hahaz... :)

today: went to school early.. printed my notes and sis's den went for lecture. dunno wat was going on during lectures... the only thing i can remember was the cheffnon faces... haha.. if i spelled it correctly... the whole time i was trying to concentrate but drChang's voice is juz too... hahaz... duno wat to say... anw, jap class was fun.

things to do:
1) complete assignment
2) exercise
3) prepare for sat's mock exam

things to anticipate:
1) lunch date with tex this sat
2) tennis, swimming, movie on tues
3) date with lynn and company

2006-09-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

happy teachers' day!

i've received a bottle of stars and lotza chocs... hahaz.. :)

hahaz... im so awake... shouldn't have drank coffee earlier...

anw, had quite a good week. no long waiting or squeezing to board 179, not much queuing for food, nice weather and most imptly, i went thru all the tutorials safely... haha... esp with Dr Cha. at least i managed to participate in the discussion and gave some pretty good ans... although i forgot the term.. hahaz... oh! sad thing... rmb mrJonathan? i received news on wed that he's leaving... oh manz... so saddening lah! haiz... that goes mr handsome.

ohh.. another exciting thing... HSS forming sports team.. hahaz.. so of coz there's tennis team too... hahaz... but so far only found 2 gals.. four more to form a team... hahaz... pretty soon we can start playing... can't wait!

things to do:

1) read up for info viz
2) finish up assignments for hp101 and hw101
3) theory homework
4) buy bday presents for sept babies
5) catch a movie!
6) lose weight.

2006-08-29T14:33:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!!

taking a break... all those readings.... yawn...
anw, had an interesting lecture yesterday on state of consciousness... learnt about hypnosis and meditation. way cool... and adding on to that... the lecturer is none other than mrJonathan!! hehe... :)
jap class was tiring... seems like i can read and speak.... but writing it is another thing... hahaz... but it's ok.. slow and steady... im doing well enough i think.... scored pretty well for my spelling... hahaz... 18/18, 22/24, 11/12.... not too bad huh...
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bad news! i've gained weight. bad. real bad. very bad. better stop snacking.
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the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. hahaz... whatever. i've finally got my lazy fat body outta the house for a run... ran like nv b4.... compensate for those few weeks of slacking... i ran like 4.8? hahaz... whoa! feels good. and guess what?? today i finally got to play tennis after like... so many months?? hahaz... felt great to smack some balls. hahaz... although my knees hurt... but it feels good. whacked all those stress away man. (at least for awhile)
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sayonara!

2006-08-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

hey.

coming to the end of week 3... seems not long ago i started school... and wow... 3 weeks already?!

come to think of it.. wat have i learnt?

1) lots about the brain and perception.
2) sentence patterns. haha!
3) how to write hiragana... new vocabs... simple conversations in jap...
4) independent variables vs dependent variables... mode, mean, median... yawn.
5) the way around ntu

hahaz... seems like nothing much in 3 weeks huh...

anw, i better start mugging... juz realised i've got lots to read, to understand, to apply. (serial pattern??) hahaz... i'm spending too much time slacking... so it's back to studying again! (wat??? no more 'partying'??) and oh! my theory exam is scheduled like 2 months from now... that leave me with not much time to memorise all those musical terms... orchestrations... characteristics of different periods and instrumentation. oh my!

things to do this weekend:
sat: theory class in the morning, den work aft that... follow by the date with shaun. :)
sun: work and more work.

things to look forward to next week:
let me think about it....

hmmm...

nothing?

things to dread about for next week:
1) hp101 tutorial.
2) hp102 tutorial.
3) 3 hours lecture for infoviz

hmmm... maybe pure mugging is too much for me. i need some fun! haha.

2006-08-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

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wherever u are, whatever u do,
i will be right here waiting for u....
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my mr right muz know how to sing this at least. hahaz... im mad.
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anw, nothing much happened these two days.

sun: met alvin for dinner after work... walked around... talked cock... den home sweet home.

mon: rushed for classes one after another. 9:30-2:30, 3-5... yawn. den went to support mrAlvin in his rally.. pretty dumb... but for the sake of supporting fren... i stayed around till almost 8... yawn...

today: slack around at home... watched about 5 episodes of bleach, one stupid movie... think it's stupid prolly coz im not exactly concentrating on watching i think... hahaz... coz my brain went 'huh?!' when the whole thing ended... hahaz, and just in case u're wondering how come uni so slack... i did my readings, assignment and prac writing hiragana before that okay... hahaz...

tml: no class again. hahaz... so planning to meet lynn and peng to shop around in bugis... hahaz... window shop for me.. muz refrain from buying... save money! hahaz...

thurs: 2 hours of class and lunch with shaun... prolly soccer or tennis in the evening.

fri: no class again. hahaz.. slack week huh... *grinx*

sat: lesson in the morning. ntu band concert in the night with shaun.

that's all i'll update i guess.

2006-08-19T15:23:00.000+08:00

hey.. back to update...

first thing first.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI ! :) heehee...

end of yet another week.

highlights:

1) i made it thru the tutorials. overwhelmed by how much i need to prepare and read up thou.
2) got my lappy. but having abit of prob with it.. hahaz.
3) dinner with lynn on thurs.
4) got my pay from the last job.

boos:

1) sick for 2 days
2) some issues yet to settle.
3) spent lotza money on textbooks & lappy stuff. yucks.

things to do:

1) settle the issue.
2) save up money.
3) prepare next week's classes.

things to buy:

... no money buy what. NO SHOPPING. for now.

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to love or be loved.
to pursue or be pursued
to tell or be told
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2006-08-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

end of the first week of school.

attended a couple of lectures.

sit in for one tutorial.

spent a night in shaun's hall.

enjoying frens' company.

adapting to the new environment.

making new frenz.

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so far so good.

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pondering over issues.

things to be settled but not done.

things to be said but not said.

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chickening out.

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yucks.

2006-08-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey... back to update before school starts.

tues: meet peng in the afternoon to shop.... hahaz.. oh my... the shopping trip was fun.. hahaz... i went off with 2 tops, 1 bottom, 1 belt, 6 earrings... hahaz.... and peng went off with necklace and a top and of course, earrings. hahaz... den met the rest for dinner... walked around, talked cock in TCC.... den went home... hahaz...

wed: stoned at home i think... kan rmb... oh! my matriculation.... hahaz... got a pretty good time table... compared to other schoolmates... hahaz... i've got a tues off... thurs abit boring thou... 2 hours class... hahaz... prob i'll squeeze one more elective... hahaz... so basically, im doing 5 subjects... 3 fixed + 2 electives... hahaz... im doing japanese and intro to HR management... some crap thing... but need to fufil the GER so juz do lor... hahaz... hopefully it'll be fun. :)

thurs: johor trip! hahaz... meet early in the morning... got in at around 10 plus... den made our way to the first mall... kan rmb how to spell the malay word... Jusco is the main shop in there... hahaz... anw, it's huge. spent around 3 hours there i think.. hahaz... more on window shopping juz to cover the whole mall... hahaz... bought a DP top there at around RM27 (divide 2.3)... hahaz... den alvin bought donuts for us... it's nice. yummy. hahaz... den we head to holiday plaza... bought DVDs there... hahaz... the place pretty interesting... totally amazed and overwhelmed. hahaz... den head to city square where we did most of our shopping... hahaz... bought shoes, tops, bottoms... hahaz... fun. got back to singapore at 10pm... hahaz...

fri: went back to ntu to collect matri card and listen to some deans talking... met up with my course mates and the professors... hahaz... pretty nice ppl... hopefully i'll get along well with them.. :) hahaz... den went to get laptop... bought fujitsu lifebook. decided not to get tablet... hahaz... den went to collect my piano result. i failed. wateva. totally depressed. dun talk about it le... dun ask either. tired.

anw, school starting on monday le... kinda excited.... hahaz... but yet, it means that i'll have lesser time to myself le... it'll be study, study and study. really kan imagine... hahaz...

things to decide:

1) wat other elective to do.
2) wat activity to join.

things to get:

1) shoe
2) bag
3) pencil case

lala la la... lala la la... elmo song... *grinx*

2006-07-31T16:07:00.000+08:00

back again. boring day stoning... apart receiving calls from lynn, updating me... hahaz... think the two of us are mad. :p

anw... was stoning last night den came up with a nice conclusion.
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the more u know a person, the more u realised that u don't know the person.

that's when u really get to know the real person.
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sounds abit 'huh?' i know... but.. hahaz... yup. that's it.

anw, think it's time to change my blogskin...

things to consider:

1) wat electives to do.
2) travelmate vs lifebk vs tablet
3) wat activity to join.
4) is it juz me? or both?
5) ya deh ya deh... lotz to think

2006-07-30T08:49:00.000+08:00

busy busy week

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hi peeps... back to read more about me again??

hahaz... i had a tiring week... but fun. :) hahaz...

wed: met up with lynn, mao, zong and ed... watched pirates at lido... the show's not bad... thou abit draggy in the middle... hahaz... den aft tt lynn n i headed back home... so guai right. =p talked on the phone.

thurs: went to do my hair today... got it cut and highlighted... u can guess wat colour. hahaz... anw, it looks abit havoc according to mum... hahaz... but apart from that, i've got more positive than negative comments... hahaz... so not too bad. =p
talked on the phone.

fri: up early... supposed to go cycling with tytto... met alvin on the train den head to payalebar.. only to realise that lotz of ppl decided not to go and left with 3 gals and him. hahaz... so we head to marina to catch a movie instead. hahaz.. yeah, in our east coast wear. hahaz.. watched lakehouse... nice. hahaz.... but it's freezing cold in there... after tt went shopping around with pat and bishi... bought a dress... hahaz... =) den home to change den head off to teach.
talked on the phone.

sat: went for lesson den met melissa for lunch :) hahaz... thou the lunch wasnt that long, but had a good time catchin up... hahaz... den went off after her frenz came... met him and his godsis... den went shopping for electronics.... hahaz.. tiring but fun. shop around, asked for prices... tried to make things difficult for the sales peeps by asking lotza ques.. funny ques sometimes... hahaz... so we went from funan to simlim... den settled with his purchase, we went down to ikea... the place was like flooded. real packed... but i found myself a good position. hahaz... juz stand on the trolley and be pushed ard... hahaz... relax. aft tt we went to queensway to shop... saw this addidas bag... quite nice... think will get it... den saw this nike shoe as well... streetsoccer shoe.. but nice. hahaz... so many things i wan to get. den went for dinner and home sweet home... took me quite some time to get home thou... hahaz... took a cab to tampines to drop off his stuff and his godsis... den drop him off at costa sands.... den headed home... hahaz... den realised that he already paid for the cab when i went to the washroom at costa sands... how sweet. :)

okie... updates for next week.

dinner with peng, lynn and company on tues.

and oh yar! im gg overseas on thurs... to johor. :p hahaz... 4 gals + 1 guide. we're gg in to shop manz... hahaz..

back to sch for freshman orientation. yawn.

p.s. i care.

2006-07-26T08:56:00.000+08:00

hi people!

back to update u guys... juz realised the last entry was like on the 12th?? hahaz...

anw, spent one whole week in hss foc... the whole thing wasn't that bad... except for a little bit of screw ups with their planning and execution... hahaz... anw... the best thing about the camp was that i had a bunch of really nice people to spend my 5 days with... and guess wat? lilian is in my group!! hahaz... was still so worried before that that i'll be alone... but thank God... hahaz... lilian is in my og! hahaz... my group is pretty small... 14 people... 3 guys 11 gals... hahaz... anw, we won the best og... :) :) not bad huh... *grinx*

mon: Tytto(my og!) met up in the morning... around 11 to singK.. hahaz.. all so high lahz... den sang all the stupid songs... hahaz... fun! den we dropped by galilee for a drink... played poker and jenga... hahaz... den did lotza stupid dares.... hahaz... i only got it once... but mine was easy... hahaz.. take pic with a handsome dude... :) hahaz... post it up when i get the pic.. hahaz... den we went to suntec.... spent some time in the arcade... hahaz... and guess wat?! i got myself a huge cookie monster! hahaz... thanks to alvin of coz.... hahaz... and we're way lucky... 9 bucks on the cookie mon... and another like 20+ on the elmo but kan get it... hahaz.... am i lucky or wat? hahaz... den dinner at carls followed by pool game... hahaz... played abit... improve abit le... thanks to alvin's and carmen's coaching... hahaz...

tues: decided to drop by the clinic to get my cream for the rash i gotten from the camp... hahaz... den back home to stone.... hahaz... stoned till 4 plus when he called me out for dinner... hahaz... so met 7 at compasspt... such a nice guy to come all the way here... anw... went to fareast square... hahaz.... tried thai food... not too bad... we ate pufferfish too... heehee... den we walked to boatquay... stopped by mac to buy icecream... den walked our way towards esplanade.... hahaz... found a place, sat down den talked rubbish... talked till like 10 den walked our way back to take train... den walked our way home from sengkang... hahaz... got to know him better... interesting guy :)

2006-07-12T08:04:00.000+08:00

heyhey...

yesterday was such a wonderful day.

1) sis's commencement day! *grinx*
2) my parents' 24th wedding anniversary (aww...)

all lawyers to be in 5 months' time :)

finally, after 16 years of hardwork, my sis has graduate, with a second class honours(upper) in law :)

look at her face... hahaz... any idiot can tell how happy she is... heehee...

and of course im so so proud of my sis! :)

our smile looks abit tired huh.. hahaz.. that's coz daddy taking a long time... hahaz... :p

not forgetting my parents... u kan really tell how happy they are here.. but if u were around to see... their actions the days before, and the day itself reflect much more of how they feel. and of course u can guess how they feel. :)

that's my parents. :)

my loving family :)

ta da!

we are so proud of u!! :)

2006-07-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

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it's been a long time.

i am feeling good.

really really happy today.

deep deep inside.

a kinda joy i can't explain.
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i feel so blessed. :)
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today

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2006-06-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

heyhey

back again... din do much these few days... stayed home and be 'ms maria' (i cooked my first pot of rice yesterday!) while mum is away at ah ma house for duno how long... haiz... anw, my job is getting super boring... repeating the same thing over and over again... getting rude ppl on the line... 'lying' to those people on the other end of the phone everyday... manz... and besides that i found out today more about the company being a big cheat... hahaz... thanks to aunty susan... but anw, decided to quit after a month... so i'll juz close one eye and pretend the whole is as beautiful... i really think sometimes one shouldnt prob too much into something if u can coz sometimes the more u know, the more things u'll be 'burdened' with... and u'll find it hard to be happy with certain things... so i'll see everyone as the nicest person... and take neutral stand if he/she is really beyond... that way i'll be happy all day long... hahaz... watever logic that is.

time to do some reflections soon... it's already mid year.

think of things that made me happy, things that made me sad, things that i should ve done but din... things that i shouldnt do but i did... hmm.. think think think...

yucks. i hate to be alone.

2006-06-25T08:55:00.000+08:00

hey! back to update again =)

this week abit busy... so sorry...

anw, monday went to catch Cars after work... not too bad a show... few points to reflect on... den come tues, my big day! hahaz... left house early to the music school, this time accompanied by zong(thanks!)... was pretty nervous the night b4 i supposed so i lost my sleep.... woke up to a fever that went off during my exam and back again when i got home... :( anw, the exam went pretty smoothly... better den i tot... of course there's mistakes.... but not as bad.... thank God and those who's been praying for me... :)

nothing much for the next few days....

den come yesterday!! heehee... got up real early... packed all my stuff and we head to saf yacht club... of course daddy sent us... how else to get there... hahaz.... the six of us (lynn, bek, hui, zong and ed) + 3 crewmates (tay, jane, sher) went on board the little faithful sailboat (Ying) and we head off to pulau ubin.... heehee... the weather looks abit bad... but once again.. thank God that we got a good head start from the strong wind (with God in the vessel i can smile at the storm.. la la la)... hahaz... so we slowly sail our way there... as i said... we sailed... so we din travel very fast... prolly about 2-5 nautical mile... learned some basic techniques on sailing and knots... it's cool... took us about 4 hours b4 we got to pulau ubin.. and we anchored and waited for this old man(very nice man) to ferry us over to shore... first time im on those little sampan looking boat... heehee... had a good lunch there, took a stroll, look see look see... den head back home.... may sound boring to u guys who din go... but it's actually quite a nice feeling to be out in the sea... juz sailing, snacking, enjoying those beautiful clouds with ur good frenz.... i had a good time... and a good even tan if u minus off the 'bikini tan' on my neck... hahaz... but my face was so red it looks like i put too much blusher on... hahaz... will post up the pics once i get them... heehee.... anw, we went back and did some fishing... i din fish of course... abit too cruel for me to lure fish up and unhook the hook... so i did the job of returning those fish in the pail back into sea... hahaz... took a shower, den a stroll out to the main road, waited for the buses, a good dinner at yishun and we ended our day... wonderful.

2006-06-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

hi peeps...

i've found a part time job now... =) heehee... in fact i'm done with 1 week of my job... 5 days past so fast when u're working... hahaz... think i've led my tai tai life for too long... hahaz.. anw, im into telemarketing now... yeah... telemarketing... something that i tot i'll nv do... but... hahaz... been in it for a week... not a very good start at work.... it's kinda stressing having the need to close deals each day... thou it's only 4 hours.. the fact that they placed a board with ur names and closed deals next to it is enough to make u continue down the list calling those people... hahaz... anw, it's like 7 per hour.. so why not.. hahaz... and i got cute guys sitting around... so who cares about those rude ppl who got absolutely no 'phone manner'... hahaz... =p anw, anyone interested in spa treatment can contact me... hahaz... i've got lobang! =p

anw, so now my monthly salary has kinda doubled... hahaz... yippee! but i better learn to control... gg to spend alot when school reopens... kan wait... =) heehee..... 7th august... hahaz... last night shopping burnt my 2 days' pay... not forgetting the sailing trip next week... that's another 2 days of my pay... hahaz.... that's one week of my pay gone... hahaz... that's fast.

important thing... my piano exam is like 3 days away... and of course im not prepared at all.. so ppl who's reading this... plz pray for me... pray that everything will go smoothly... that i'll be calm... pray pray pray.

dun think there's anything else to add... it's been quite a busy week for me... im tired... night!

2006-06-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

im still sick. *sniff*

apart from that, im alright. im stronger den i tot. =p heehee

and hey, yar... talking to u... dun feel so bad... :)

for the rest who's been having question marks reading my entries lately, sorry. heehee... something happened that got me pretty upset, but nothing drastic... im fine now.

::updates::

last fri: it's my off day... went out with zong to catch a movie at picturehouse... the movie quite nice... but the part with the son having liver cancer kinda reminded me of ah gong for a moment... anw, the little theatre quite cozy... and there's this lounge specially for ppl who's watching at p.house... way cool... :) had dinner den walked around ps... before heading down to the hospital after sis told me ah ma not out yet... lucky she's ok... hahaz... got me abit worried on my way... met this man on my way to the hospital... asked for direction den started asking for my name and everything... i kinda freaked den hurried off...

last sat: stayed home... not feeling too good... was left alone in the evening when dey all went down to see grandma... den this nice dude made a special delivery to my place.. hahaz... so nice of him.... at least it cheered me up abit for awhile... really horrible to 'lose' someone, fall sick and be alone at home happening almost at the same time... tried to sleep around eight plus... but was pretty upset... ended up with puffy eyes when dey came home with flu tablets... lucky im sick so kan really tell...

sun: duno if i blogged anything about it.. anw, out with lynn and company... had dinner, den drinks at tcc before heading home... talked lotza rubbish... esp with mao around.... and stupid mao asked some qns that got me abit upset... but it's alright... im not that petty... :) and those silly ppl that night all became matchmakers... so much for being my good frenz... hahaz.. ask lynn.. she'll know... hee.

tues: went down to the hospital with my mum... spent the whole afternn there... nothing much to do there... sit around, read book... met linus downstairs... so qiao... hahaz... anw, tot i'll still be quite pissed with him but turned out im not... hahaz... im such a softie...

wed: gal's night.... heehee.. met lynn and peng in the evening to shop... hahaz... we tried on some dresses... quite fun... hahaz... love this 2 dresses... heehee... but like no occasion to wear them... too bad... anw, we spent almost 2 hours... and we only combed one level of fareast... hahaz.. think we need to meet up more b4 we can get outta orchard... hahaz.. still got bugis and marina square... hahaz... 2 hours of quick shopping, and we went off with a bag, 2 tops, 2 bottoms and a necklace... :) not bad!

2006-06-05T12:45:00.000+08:00

im sick. *sniff*

im tired. *sniff*

im troubled. *sniff*

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Story to share :)

One Flaw in Women

By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime.. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything with only two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days." The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." "Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing." And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

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so women forget their worth.
let men not take women for granted den.

2006-06-03T08:54:00.000+08:00

issue settled... after so long. duno if it's good or bad... but i supposed like someone said, it'll be better for me in the long run. before that, i shall take time to be sad for awhile. hahaz...

anw, it's time for a reflection.

few things to ponder about:

1) is it better to love or be loved?

2) ve someone u love or someone who loves u more den u do?

3) to wat point will u lose ur trust in someone?

4) am i too spoilt? too naive?

5) to forgive includes to forget. is it that easy?

as i take time to think thru.... let's see wat lessons can we pick up from this?

#1 listen to ur elders, dey are always right. (at least more of the time)

#2 look before u fall

#3 trust ur brain if u dun wan to get injured, coz ur heart may lie (but im a feeler. haha)

#4 if someone strikes u on one cheek, turn to him the other also. if he strikes both, time to wake up. (but of coz the latter is not wat the bible taught me, read on.)

#5 do to others as u would ve them do to u. so that left me with loving everyone. (that will prolly ans my 1st and 5th qns)

#6 never love a love that hurts. how true is that? how would i know if it'll hurt??

alright, stop here.
im tired.

2006-05-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

im depressed today.

::updates::

fri: met zong in the morning to get the puzzle... took a stroll down to rivervale mall... long time since i took a nice morning walk... had big breakfast.. hahaz.. and again.. long time since i had mac's breakfast... anw, afterwhich i got home and got started with the puzzle... haha... din do much got only had a few hours... had classes in the night... i started with matthew... cute little boy... and super hardworking... so of coz class went on smoothly... den to celine... den to christabel... almost screamed at her... thank God i didn't.... i juz left the room to take a breather after i gave her a sight reading piece to do.. she's like so so hard to teach.... okie... that's not a the right vocabulary... coz she learns fast... but i think i got angry coz i know she can do it but she kept insisting she kan and i had to waste lotza time trying to get her to do wat i wan her to do... wateva. den after that is her bro... bad mood that day i think... or mayb he's upset with something... anw, i left the class feeling quite bad...

sat: had theory class in the morning as usual... nothing much... learnt about tonal and real sequence... den went down to church... the kids ve this outing to pierce reservoir... it's a really nice place... green pasture, blue sky, this really nice lake in front... a pity it was drizzling... but i guess it juz help make it looks even more 'postcard-ish'... according to mel.. 'i feel like im part of a postcard...' hahaz... was in the same group as mel... so quite nice to ve her company.. and not forgetting yinfei... hahaz... anw, while the kids were eating.... i went over to this gal called jing xuan if im not wrong... she's like a new comer... so i was talkin to her... and then out of the blue she went, 'F***, the raindrop got into my rice!' i was so stunned... i juz stared at her for a moment and i went... 'did u use F earlier?' she nodded with the 'no big deal' face.... so i juz told her not too nice to use that word... my my.... wat are those kids learning in school nowadays man...

sun: had this new grade 7 gal today... not too bad.. im amazed that i can actually sight read this chopin 'Valse' quite well... hahaz... at least im not that bad... ended class early... gotta make up class for 2 kids on sunday.. otherwise i'll ve the whole day off manz... dumb... den took a cab down to esplanade for this ri concert... the cab driver was quite funny.. hahaz.. after i told him that there's slow traffic up ahead, i asked if there's another route that may b faster.. he went on telling me how the weather is bad today... cannot go faster... dangerous.. blah blah... den when he realised i got a concert to attend, he was like... 'ohh.. can can... we go by this way blah blah... no red light, very fast.' so i got there in time... hahaz.. thanks to the driver's erm... kinda superb driving skill... hahaz... concert not too bad... choir is good... ended the day depressed thou.

mon: still depressed... but it helps that i got the puzzle to distract me... and a movie with zong in the evening.... anw, i took out the receipt of the studio i booked and i realised that it's today instead of tues... so i went crazy.. i was like.. 'wat?? i asked for tues lahz.. how come it's written monday?!'... u muz understand that im in a bad mood... so i called up the school and demand that i ve the slot back.. and amazingly, this tyrant school apologised and asked if there's anw it can be arranged... i msged my teacher and asked her if she can come down earlier on tues... and guess wat? she called and went, 'tues?? why tues?? tot that time u told me tues 7:30 taken den asked me if monday ok... not today meh?' haha! see how sotong i am... but im not all that sorry i made a big fuss coz im in a bad mood and it helps that i got a chance to get back at those attitude staff in that school.. wateva... so i met zong earlier for dessert at this jap restaurant... the ice cream not too bad... :) den i went off for my class while zong hang around... the stupid studio has got a really screwed up piano.. and i hate it... even my teacher commented tat the piano is not good... it's got a way too rough and loud bass... soft pedal not exactly working well.. sustained pedal way too hard... wateva. left the class even more depressed... den met up again with zong for the movie at nine... hahaz... lucky it's a funny show... x- men is pretty funny... cute characters, funny lines... hahaz...

tues: decided not to help mr goh today coz im not in the mood to sit there and be a metronome... so i stayed home... puzzle almost done... left about prolly 200 pieces to go... yawn... gg off... bye.

2006-05-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

taylor is the next american idol. oh my.
i may be abit biased towards him... but i seriously think katherine should ve won... taylor cant dance for nuts... vocal also not that wow wow... dun understand.. and those 63.4 millions votes last night din help katherine much... taylor won.
and that means i lost. hahaz... made 2 bets with 2 different people... so now i ve to burn a disc of nice music for one and watch x-men with another... aww... why taylor won?
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next. big news. at least to my family. :)
my sis graduated with a second class upper honours in law... hahaz... oh my!
and my cousin graduated with the same degree in chem. eng... hahaz... wonderful!
everyone's happy :)

p.s. dad mentioned that i'll ve to do equally well or better. stressed. :p
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okie.. anw, i had a pretty good time shopping this week... hahaz...
went to book my studio on tues, den waited for the stupid 162 for almost an hour... den board 502, with a cute driver who stopped halfway to pee (i think) leaving sis and i on the bus... hahaz... den shopped from fareast all the way down to ps... hahaz... tired... we kinda rushed thru... shopping with sis so wat to expect. haha...
met zong in the evening to catch a movie... supposed to get the tic the day b4.. but as usual... im so sotong that i happily left ps with my shopping bags... hahaz... but zong went down earlier to get it yesterday... duno why muz get so early.. but anw, he went down earlier... hahaz.. so nice of him... thanks :)
din do much today... prac an hour more with my pieces... i think im already suffering from LDMR... hahaz... anw, im getting quite sick of those pieces... haiz.. hope i'll juz smoke thru this time round... den went to compasspt to get my pants... hahaz.. tried it at ps last night while waitin for zong... but it was the last piece that i tried.. lucky compass has it thou not the colour i wanted initially... hahaz... :)
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2006-05-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

heyhey...

first thing first... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS GRACIA! :) *grinx*

okie... updates...

sat: theory class was boring.... ended up chatting.. hahaz... put two gals together wat can u expect... hahaz... den spent an hour in n&b doing theory while i wait for the time to meet the yp group... supposedly group.. hahaz.. but only like 5 people? i suppose u can consider that a group... but 3 of them are like the leaders? hahaz... so it's me and mel... got to clear some doubts from those chapters i've been reading.... so not bad lahz... :) den helped out at cc... nothing much that day... rehearsal was ok too...

sun: helped to relief ms chua's class... spent like 5 hours in the music school... den went over to lynn's place to pass her a top... den met zong in the evening for dinner... supposedly to help me decide which school and to try out the strawberry ice cream he recommended... but.. hahaz.. we ended up discussing wat to get for gracia... hahaz... walked around the mall... den went to the night market... nothing special... but those little rides quite cute... check out zong's blog for the little video on this horsie ride.. hahaz... it's so cute... hahaz... oh yar.. got candy floss too.. hahaz.. nice fluffy pink floss... hahaz... yummy.

mon: made a trip down to woodlands to get gracia's present. hope she'll like it. hahaz.. :) anw, i made a call to the music school(would love to mention the name) to check out if there's available slot for tml... and i got this man on the phone who sounded as if i owe him money... wat d... wat i asked was if there's available slot to book a studio tml night and he was like... 'u ve to come down and check, den pay up on the spot.' wateva. he's like so... argh.

happy tots... im gg shopping tml :) heehee... and ohh... zong passing me this puzzle to complete.. hahaz.. i'll have something to kill time other than prac piano... hehe... :)

okie... that's a brief summary :)

2006-05-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

bored.

fill u guys up with wat i've been or i'll be up to this week.

monday: stayed at home suffering from monday blues

tues: met the group for dinner... zong, mao, peng and lynn... hahaz... usual dinner... den not knowing wat to do after dinner when the gals 'refused' to go over to catch the fountain, we found ourselves in ps... bid peng goodbye, we went on to this little pub thingy called hark... not bad a place... nice and cozy. had our drinks, commented on ppl's singing... we decided to test our vocals too... hahaz.. made a trip to chinatown... sang till 1:30 in the morning... hahaz... amazed how we can stay there till so early... den as usual... took cab back... lucky all of us stay nearby.. dropped lynn, den mao... den of coz next is me.. no way a nice gentleman like zong will let a gal be the last... hahaz.. thou there was a bit of 'sengkang plz...' and 'no.. punggol plz...' after we dropped mao off... hahaz...

wed: met zong at the station den head down to cine to meet him... let's juz say i did something bad... yup... lunch was peaceful... hahaz... den watched mi3 with zong... this guy gave me a surprise... hahaz.. or should i say im dumb... either way, had a good time... ohh.. realised that tom's 2 front teeth is not 'well-aligned'... hahaz... den met linus for late lunch... den head home... realised he lost his phone, we sat down waiting, praying some kind soul will pick up the phone... and thank God... a nice dude from mj picked up the phone... so we head down to tampines to meet him and got the phone back... den it's home sweet home for me.

now is to decide which uni to go to... i suppose i know which to go to.. but im still deliberating... so dumb... anw, i still got time... oh yar.. my exam is scheduled to be on the 20th next month... hmm... i ve about one more month to go.. im kinda pretty bored with my pieces... and i duno wat to prac le... or should i say im too lazy le. yucks.

plans for the rest of the week

fri: rot at home.. teach at night.
sat: theory class, lunch with yp group, cc, rehearsal
sun: teach. dinner with zong mayb.

2006-05-15T18:44:00.000+08:00

::monday blues::

sis went off to enjoy herself at bintan... leaving me alone at home... yucks.

so i spent my time playin this new game.. pretty dumb but im trying to get past level 7.

den prac piano for only an hour plus... practising to play tempo giusto with haydn... afterwhich i tot im disturbing a nice quiet morning with brahms... so decided to start with memorising musical terms... learnt 30 words in 3 diff languages... so dumb... it took me some quite awhile to get the hang with those funny letters again... hahaz.. long time since i made friends with them... i was adagietto at first... or should i say sehr langsam... but den eventually i accelerando... hahaz... and it got more agevole... hahaz... i dun think u can fit one word in like that but it's alright... for the fun of it.. hahaz... but i think i kinda forgotten some le... hahaz... or yar... do u know the german term for staccato(it.) is called abgetossen... interesting huh...

im bored.

anw, last sat was fun... bought glucose for the kids to drink... duno why glucose but ken said it's effective.. so ok lorz.. hahaz... singing was ok... kids sang quite well... jaime pretty funny... hahaz... think i better train myself to do transposition fast... hahaz...

sun lesson was good. managed to get the Chuas to change their class to morning... den got a call that i ve 2 more new kids... haiz... so in the end my day will end half hour later... yucks.

dinner time. all i do is to count down to the next meal each day.. hahaz... how interesting. ha!

argh... crap!

2006-05-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

wat a day.

shopping. meeting interesting peeps.

anw, sunday was good... din start the day too good coz the lady-in-charge forgot to come down early to open the door but thank God there's another teacher around who happened to walk past and notice me waiting... got to get him to open the room for me eventually... after much panicking coz the students already waiting... lucky the day went on smoothly... at least i think it did... the kids all look nice... little shy gals... hahaz... even the guy is shy.. hahaz.. mayb not for his dad... but anw, talking abt the daddy... hahaz... kinda funny to teach someone more than twice my age... kinda strange but i supposed i'll get use to it... got pretty fussy parents... hopefully i'll be able to handle them... time for me to be independent... so diff to teach in cc den in music sch... i'll ve to handle all the admin stuff... yucks. oh yar... im quitting ppband... was still thinking how to tell aw that i dun wana cont den heard from lynn the concert is cancelled... haha! :) so now i won't feel that guilty leaving the band... not that i did much in the band...

played badminton with gracia and sis... it's so tiring... more tiring den tennis... den gg to gym.. dun ask me why.. hahaz... anw, woke up with my arm and butt aching... hahaz.. duno why my butt will ache... but it did.. hehe.. and according to gracia, she's aching too... hahaz...

shopping with sis today... supposed to shop for mum's present + sis's bag... but turned out we bought a couple of tops for ourselves... hahaz... and got none of wat we set out for... hahaz... mum's present was abit of a hassle... were at taka... saw this pretty nice handbag... but the last piece had some defects.. so we decided to shop other places... den shop shop and found another outlet that sells the bag... but dey dun ve the colour we like (wat d!)... asked the lady to call up other outlets to ask so we know where to go... told us dey dun ve the no... tt even if call up, the ppl wun know wat it is coz there's no colour code for it... so she gave us some places to go... people's park og was one of it... so we decided to go down there... and u guess wat? not only dun ve our bag, there wasnt even a counter for that brand. basket... so pissed with that lady lahz... wasted our time... so much for travelling... by den we were pretty tired so head home... on my way back at sk station, met another woman.. yucks. i was nice not to be rude still dare to turn back and stare at me... hmmmm....

2006-05-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

God is good

anw.. i've got... let me see... 8 more new students... coz im gg to teach on sunday... that means more income for me.. :) heehee... not that i'll earn much coz teaching in CC... but better den nothing... hahaz... so now, i have got 12 students.. not too bad huh... but i'll get to see if im really a good teacher by the end of this year when the kids get back their grades... hmmm... i'll be praying hard for them... esp christabel... :) and talking about having that many students... i got to enjoy my very first privilege... hahaz... i got 20% off my sch fees, off books... hahaz.. how nice is that... to think that such privileges are only for full time teachers... hahaz.. it's good that mrs toh likes me huh... heehee... :p oh yar! two of my students are actually father-son relationship... how scary is that... im gg to teach a man, prolly in his late forties since his son is like fifteen... im actually pretty nervous about tml.. plz pray for me... :) thanks.

went down to help out at the CC today.. the kids are juz so so adorable... heehee... so cute!! but i supposed teaching them is another thing.. hahaz.. dey are so hyper... :) but kids are still kids... good news today is that my parents din object... strange isn't it... mayb not... anw, thank God. :) so little missy here is in a really really good mood... haha!

think i'll stop here.. bye.

2006-05-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

bored...

call me out ppl.. ben xiao jie rotting at home... :p

anw, went swimming today... not too bad... coz the weather was so so good... hahaz... so i din get tanned... hahaz... and the pool was pretty empty... hahaz... so kinda got the whole pool to us... heehee.. got home and stoned till now... hahaz...

nothing exciting happened yet... anticipating.

anw, i've kinda made up my mind..

2006-05-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

hi peeps..

highlights of the week:

1) played tennis with sis, spent two days lunching together... :)

2) i got letter from nus... so deciding which to accept now...

3) bought an ipod nano

that's about all... hahaz...

other things to mention??

hmmm... im getting real bored in band... think it's a complete waste of time... i sat there for like 2-3 hours, and i only played one piece... wat d... but yet i feel bad to leave now... thou as wat zong said, i should leave b4 it's really too late... and i found out that i'll prolly be the one and only percussionist... hahaz.. how 'cool' is that. wateva.
anw, bin came down to see ppfb yesterday... hahaz... sat at the back talking for awhile... been so long since we last met... den went out for dinner after band... hahaz.. went to cj for dinner... funny thing.. hahaz... bin ordered a meal and fries for the two of us... den when the order came... there were like 3 burgers, 2 fries, 1 onion ring.. hahaz... told the fellow to change it but he din come back... so after awhile we ate them... hahaz... left with 2 burgers, played games and got rid of them... hahaz.. was so so bloated... ok.. mayb more for the guys.. hahaz... den walked around.. settled at starbucks.. den home sweet home... oh yar.. got a shirt from bin from his airborne course... how sweet of him... even got my name printed on the sleeve... heehee... thanks :)

why is it so hard??

2006-04-25T10:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday was DRAMATIC... anw, time flies... bling! and it's been 101 days since ah gong passed away... still rmb that day... i've got band performance and left the hospital early thinking prolly after the concert i'll still be in time to rush back to the hospi... but as u guys know i din make it back... i still feel kinda guilty... no, guilty is not the most apt word to use... i duno... it's kinda sad coz now when i think back, i kan rmb how ah gong looks like when he's well and 'cancer-free'... all i see is him when he's sick... when he had to stay home... i only see the painful look on his face.. okie... better stop before i kan control my tap... haha!

yesterday, went down early in the morning... everything went ok... uncle chanted the scriptures, 'inviting' ah gong back to eat... the rest sit around and talk.. and man, i was bored... nvm about that first... and of coz ah ma was tearing.. who wont? okie.. except me, i din get emotional yesterday... amazing huh... den when ah ma went back into her room, she starting crying... very badly... den soon there's a 'choir'... den suddenly, a cappella version of 'mother!'... den my uncle rushed out, grabbed the scripture back to the room.. starting chanting... so did the rest... ghee and i sat outside wonderin wat's gg on... being the older one, i went in to see... saw uncle with the scripture, 'slapped' on grandma face... i tot something was wrong so i disappeared from the room... after awhile den daddy told me ah ma's soul 'left' her body... sheesh! den she was so tired she slept.. the rest of the adults sat outside talking... some totally shakened... hmm... was home about 9 plus... tired...

anw, was talkin to ken and surprisingly, despite my 'hahaz' and smileys, he asked if im troubled... he's good... or im too obvious, but i know i din... he knew something was bothering me when we exchanged a couple of smses.. hahaz.. wow. den he gave me some jokes b4 he go off... hahaz... :)

"Be still and know
Who is in control of the situation
Even if heaven and earth passed away
He will not change.
Life may seems with heartbreak and sadness
But God is always there
He hears the prayer of every child
That calls upon His name
Though trials and temptations may come
Perserver on for this is the Christian run
Live a life of trust and obey
When all may fall...
We are still in the Saviour's hand."

2006-04-22T10:35:00.000+08:00

heyhey, back again...

this week been quite fun... out a couple of times...

went out with zong on tues after he came over to pass me some stuff... accompany me to marina square for a walk-in-interview at chocz... but unfortunately, they want someone who can walk long term.. so no luck there... hahaz... walked around the mall, talked alot... den went to thai express for dinner... den walked around... settled at a cafe in raffles city... got home about 10 plus... hahaz.. tired... but coz of the coffee dosage, i was up till 2 plus 3 b4 i fell asleep.. yucks... hahaz....

wed... went out with linus in the afternoon... walked around, watched movie den go home...

thurs... supposed to go down to catch the syf... but was tired... so din go down... stayed home the whole day... prac piano, chat online... blah blah...

fri... met ken for lunch at kovan after his paper... den we went to the library... chatted... den went over to my music school to play piano.. hahaz... play piano, sing song... tot it'll be weird meeting him, but i guess was alrite bahz.. hahaz... den started my work.. the kids are alright... though dey din really prac due to exams... hahaz... but prolly coz chris not around so my mood was pretty good... hahaz... i sound mean but i seriously duno how to 'control' chris... i'll have to sit down and think of some way... hahaz...

later got both theory and piano, followed by dinner at grandma's house... hopefully things go well later... grandma's first birthday without my grandpa... it's gonna be hard..

tml i'll go for the tea party with lynn.. heehee.. lucky can bring someone along... hahaz... so i wun be so lost in there le.. hahaz... :) den dinner with zong they all at serangoon garden... den to lynn's house for facial.. hahaz.. zong gg to show us something i think.. hahaz.. cool...

okie.. that's about my week bahz... update again.. bubbye!

2006-04-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

heyhey...

highlights!

1) im may be teaching on another day... so prob abit more income. :)

2) A: 'the romantic feel not there gal... u got boyfren?'

B: 'ehh... can consider so...'

A: 'ohh!! that's good... okay... now, try picturing u and ur boyfren at some place... any place u like... let's try again k..'

B starting playing thru the parts

A paused and stared at B for awhile den said, ' are u having some prob with him?'

B stunned and started laughing! 'how on earth she knows?' hahaz...

u have to be there to see it... it's funny... thou abit sadden by everything... think on the bright side, actually B has got the ability to bring out her tots and emotions thru music... congrats gal! :)

3) i got accepted by ntu! heehee... like wat he said, im a step closer to becoming a psychologist. think i'll wait for nus one.. if i get one that is... den decide.. dad said prolly i should stay in hostel if i go ntu.. hahaz... but me? alone to cope with everythin... hmm.. hahaz... see how...

4) im getting back my touch with the keys... startin to play something decent... finally. :)

2006-04-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

totally bored.

seriously, i think i'll ring up my agent and get her to get me a job. ben xiao jie getting tired of tai tai life... hahaz... my ideal tai tai life is not like this. let's see... my ideal TT-life is that im rich enough that i dun have to work... so i can do wateva i wan... that includes sponsoring kids, visiting them with my kids during hols... setting up an orphanage... attending charity dinner... surprise my hubby at work during lunch... have all the time with my kids... and all these are so way out from wat im gg thru now... hahaz... i've been up each day thinking how i shall make the best outta each day... that includes cycles of tv, computer, piano, reading... sick.

anw, i've signed up at ccf... hopefully this time they'll get back to me... thinking of gg to do something for the environment.. how about mangrove swamp cleanup? hahaz.. or volunteering at those green talks.. hahaz.. cool huh... im not mad.

anw, tues tennis was good... played thruout the day... a pity it rained in the morning so din get to play much... anw, had lunch with the gals... walked around... bought some paints and went back school to paint out nails.. hahaz.. purple, orange... with little flowers... awesome.. =p hahaz... den we had the match... helly and i first time partner.. so abit no mo qi... hahaz... but still we won 6-3... hahaz.. not bad not bad... heehee...

went out for dinner yesterday... typical... sit and talk to the one next to u dinner.. hahaz... den went for a movie after tat... managed to pissed zy off... haiz... anw.. the movie was great... made me feel like picking up ballroom dance... hahaz.. =p after tt i managed to get talked into and sat outside starbucks till almost one before we started our journey home... almost fell asleep on the way back.. anw, thanks zong! :) so, i was home late... as usual... got some nagging from daddy... so din get a chance to go for service early the today... :( but i think daddy felt bad for 'shouting' at me last night... hahaz... so he's been nice to me today... hahaz...

okie... stop here... oh yar.. happy Good Friday people...

2006-04-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

hello.

boring day at home... prac piano... other time chatting online... till i opened the fridge! hahaz.. and ta dam!! i spot the little red, yellow, green... and i decided to... draw.

hahaz... i took out the capsicuns... cut two up... drew different views... till i got bored... and i started drawing lines... long flowing lines... hahaz... i had capsicuns for dinner. (no link i know) hahaz...

den went to meet gracia after dinner... that gal was/is upset... had ice cream!!! think tml i'll have to shed off all those unwanted fats i've put in... hey, gal... u should be honoured i had icecream with u... :p hahaz... den bought some beancurd rice balls home for them to eat... hahaz... den guess wat? after we went out ways, i met iskandar! hahaz... for those who rmb... he's this perc guy who once helped out at zhss... hahaz... quite funny... we walked past each other.. den turned back and look again... b4 we recognise each other.. hahaz... i forgot his name u see... hahaz... but we hi hi and went off... den was waiting for the bus den so happen he's taking the same one... hahaz.. so we talked.. catch up abit... not that we were frenz b4.. hahaz... exchanged our nos and said to keep in touch.. hahaz... funny guy...

that's my day!

2006-04-09T10:07:00.000+08:00

back.

nothing exciting this week... come to think of it... hahaz...

welcome back lynn!! hope u're feeling better :)

but i did watch quite a few movies recently... from silly dumb 'iceage2' to horror movies 'fragile' and 'dorm'... hahaz... supposedly horror movies but not that scary.. hahaz.. though i did get freaked here and there.. hahaz... and got zong all amused.. hahaz.. iceage was totally dumb... but still managed to get me laughing.. prolly due to the laughters of the audience.. hahaz... den there's this movie 'rent'... really nice movie... nice songs in there... go catch it if u can.. :)

called zong out on monday... was so bored and a teeny bit upset... so got him out for dinner.. had a great time... dine at maestro bistro... food wasnt bad but i got cheated by the hotdog deluxe... the ice lemon tea there quite nice... :) heehee... nvm about that... after that went for the movie... den wanted to go get my piggies... but by the time we got there the shop already closed... so we walked on to fareast... hahaz... he wanted to intro the british takeaway but guessed we were down on our luck tat night.. hahaz.. settled on ice-cream instead.. hahaz.. sat at the roadside eating... really nice... :)

tues.. met up with linus in the afternoon... went for movie... walked around the mall... den back home for dinner...

wed: up really early coz it's qing ming... so we got to mandai b4 8:30.. and already it was pretty crowded... again.. pretty dramatic there.... have to see it to know... ah ma fainted, her kids all freaked... sis and i stayed at one side... people around looking at us.... hmmm... pretty sad... den after tt met up with linus... den home for dinner... i think... hahaz... i think im suffering from short term memory... im having a hard time tryin to recall... hahaz...

nothing happened the next 3 days... stayed home... stoned... tried to prac piano but no mood...

going to 'see' ah gong again later... mummy prepared food for him.. this time he'll have all the time to eat... hahaz... den off to band prac.. back to clarinet section... hmm... hopefully i dun sound too bad... haiz...

troubled.

2006-04-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

wat's happening?!

2006-03-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

to love is to be vulnerable

2006-03-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

::updates::

fri: kan rmb wat happened... but class with the kids was alright...

sat: had my theory class in the morning... teacher was trying to get me to change to another teacher coz she's stressed up taking higher grades.. hahaz.. how funny... but both me and another gal refused to change.. hahaz.. too bad for her.... den i went down to labrador park... din play with them but i had a good time chatting with the other ladies... hahaz... was talking to this lady.. kan rmb her name... she's called missteo by her students.. hahaz... so anw... she's quite nice... and we had a good talk with mel, esther and lydia... there was a birthday cake at the end of the outing for march babies.. how sweet... :)

sun: piano lesson was funny... hahaz.. learnt new stuff.... again i got amused by my teacher.. hahaz.. musicians are funny creatures... i know im saying im funny creatures too... hahaz... i think i am... mood swings... fickle minded... insane... hahaz... wateva.... den went over to lynn's place after class to keep her company so she'll not feel uncomfy with nick... hahaz... went to j8, got her an ice cream cake... yummy! :) den talked about nick... dinner with linus... den home sweet home...
happy birthday lynn! happy birthday teresa!

today: went to exercise with gracia... hahaz... did some workout... at least i exercised... =p hahaz... den went to hougang mall... walked around.... got myself a vcd... hahaz.. den home with linus... talk talk, had lunch.... den went to meet lynn at compass... gals gathering was alright... hahaz... miss the time... din talk much... hahaz... but it was alrite... took some neoprints den head home... yawn... tired... =p hahaz...
happy birthday szehui! :)

okie... really brief summary of wat happened... :)

2006-03-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

it's so warm today... yucks...

anw... yesterday's dinner quite fun... realised that itz been some time since i luffed like this with my frenz... hahaz... din reali gotta catch up with peng and bek coz we sitting at diff sides... anw... itz alrite... was stucked with the lamers... hahaz... regina, hui and goh... hahaz.. the three are enough.. hahaz... so silly.. hahaz... but it's fun... anw, i got a bag and a pair of shoe from them... thanks! i love them... :)

come to think of it... im missing those times in sec school where the group of us juz hang out and be silly... hahaz... hmmm... getting nostalgic... hahaz... i juz think back and wish if only, juz for a chance, i were back there... den i'll prolly make better use of those years i had... undo mistakes, learn to treasure some people more, not get myself involved... i'll prolly make wiser decisions(like not getting into relationships? learn to balance time btn bandfrenz and classmates?)... spend more time with frenz, in my studies, on my piano... there's so much i could have done back in those years and i wun say i hate those times coz when i think back... they are the most memorable onez(esp the last 2 years in zhss)... all the ups and downs i had... frenz who stood by me when im way down... frenz that i din learn to treasure(im sorry)... hmmm... blah blah... there's so many things that i regretted doing... if only...
haiz... im such a loser... even till now.... wateva.

let's not get myself all depressed... anw, supposed to play tennis with mao today.. but juz 2 ppl kinda boring... so prolly another day when zong they all are free... hahaz... juz got msg from esther this morning... actually asked me to help her with maths... heehee... of coz i agreed.. i mean how can u turn down someone who asked for help... but mathz.. hahaz.. hope it's something i can help her with... had my 'spa' again... the weather's warm enough.. to think i have to stay in the hot tub.. hahaz... but well... it killed some time.... anw... i called up the agency and apparently they said the a/c no i gave not right... so rubbish... i pretty much sure it was rite... wateva. im sure i din write wrongly... anw... they've got the cheque so i'll have to make a trip down there... haiz... waste my time... not to say my transport fee isn't that cheap anymore... hahaz...
wateva!

2006-03-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

boo!!

hahaz.. got up late today... im a real pig these days... bad... tml i shall try to get up earlier... hahaz.. prolly go for a light exercise... hahaz... if i get out of bed...

anw... went on a date with gracia... pretty cool.. had the whole theatre to ourselves.. hahaz.. well... almost the whole.. hahaz... watched nanny mcphee... nice show... pretty funny... hahaz... good thing when theatre is empty... can luff out loud... can sit anyhow u like... hahaz.. can juz talk without disturbing others around... hahaz... den after tt walked around the mall... got lynn her present... hahaz... den went to the lib... stayed there for some time... den headed home... yawn... hahaz... that's all folks... goodnite!

2006-03-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

heyhey...

back to update on my birthday yesterday... :) first thing first.. i still feel the same. mayb i feel more loved. but otherwise im still myself... hahaz... so peeps who's been asking... 'so how does it feels?' hahaz.. i feel like myself. :)

supposed to go for crystal jade dinner lastnite... but we got cheated by the internet info... so ended up at northpoint only to realise that the restaurant, prolly due to the kuku-ness of the mall, has moved (yeah.. there goes my xiao long bao :p)... hahaz... so we settled with a simple dinner in the mall... den decided to go over to starbucks for cheese cake and coffee(obviously not for me)... so as i said... it was a kuku mall... we found ourself in this small pathetic starbucks... so obviously we din eat there(coz there wasnt enough for 5).. hahaz... went to swensens... treated my family to ice-cream... hahaz... no birthday song from family this year coz we kan celebrate(at least daddy they still kan)... hmmm... but nvm... there were like 2-3 other families celebrating... so i got to listen to birthday songs while enjoying my firehouse birthday ice cream... :) got home, daddy opened a bottle of wine... unknowingly, i drank quite abit.. hahaz... was feeling light-headed so went to bed early.. hahaz..

mrTan came over this morning... spend some time talking... den went to have my hair cut and coloured (slightly red).. not too bad... i still look like myself.. hahaz.. =p that's all for today i think...

oh yar! something really good happen lastnite... i guessed it may be like the best thing to hear from them.. heehee... anw, i may get to tell them the truth pretty soon i guess.... one step at a time... be patient and wait... heehee... was so happy.... thank God... and for those praying... thanks... =) heehee... itz not something big but itz big enough to get me happy... ask me about wat and mayb... perhaps... i'll tell u wat is it... :) hahaz...

2006-03-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

wat can i say...

(: (: that gal had a FABULOUS night :) :)
(thank you dear)

.
THANK GOD too for you

i juz love the flowers... dudes out there, be amazed by the power of flowers on gals. *grinx*

2006-03-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with my blog... hmmmm

2006-03-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

back again...

tiring day today.. lotza walking... but i guess it's good exercise for fat gal like me... :) i need to exercise!

popo looks much better... heard from aunty she still gets upset... but compared to my ahma, she's way better... strong woman is my popo... to go thru it alone... not exactly alone... but compared to my ahma, she's way more poor thing... not saying that my ahma lost her husband not sad... but comparatively... my ahma has got so many ppl around her... almost round the clock someone is around... but my popo dun have... seriously... sometimes ppl reali gotta give some tots to others... i meant that person who keeps aiming at that person... plz be considerate... keep quiet... it helps to be quiet sometimes... shhhh... :)

anw... went for a stroll with mei to rivervale mall to check out if the shop has got my piano book... but when we got there... the music shop has turned into a bank... hahaz... great. according to my mei, 'peanut butter'. hahahaz.... so since itz early, we decided to try walkin to compasspoint... hahaz... took about 20 mins to get there... went crazy on the way... but quite fun... hahaz... 2 silly gals... :) 'shop' around the mall den took a bus back home... hahaz... yawn... my knee aching... yucks.

good day today... station playing one of my fave songs... Above All .... :) :)

2006-03-16T10:46:00.000+08:00

morning!

had a wonderful day yesterday.... :)

played tennis with lydia and mel.... hahaz.... got sun burnt of coz... hahaz... played at 10 so wat u think... hahaz... my skills totally yucks. ... lousy shots, lousy backhand... but who cares... i had fun... hahaz... den try some shots with the kids... hahaz... they are so cute... racquet looks so big on them... hahaz... played till 12 den went back to lydia's house... played with the kids(i was the customer buying burger from them.. hahaz...) while lydia prepare lunch for us... hahaz... sit around talk talk play piano... den watched part of gongfu hustle den left with mel... hahaz... got home, bathed, rested den off i went to meet linus for dinner den off to indoor stadium for disney on ice performance... heehee... :) this year not as fantastic as last but i still love it... *grinz* M I C K EY MOUSE! (sing to the tune) hahaz....

later goin over to visit popo... so long since i last seen her... the last was... hmmm... 31st dec i think... 3 months!! hahaz... amazing... more amazing is that that means i have been gg over to my ahma's house at least once everyweek for 3 months... wow.

anw... i've settled with psychology... and i've applied for both uni... so see how bahz... :)

2006-03-14T09:41:00.000+08:00

'somewhere out there
if love can see us through
then we'll be together
somewhere out there
out where dreams come true'

i love this song... thanks Gracia!!! :) heehee...

anw... stayed home these days... so nothing much to talk about... watch tv, play games, prac piano... not that i prac alot yesterday... was too bored to sit there and prac... anw, mummy tried this chinese herb bath on me yesterday... and eventhough i hate chinese herb... this one not too bad... at least the smell is alright... hahaz... so i was made to sit in the tub and soak... hahaz... chinese spa... den mummy scrubbed me... feel so weird to be naked in front of her... hahaz.. eventhough she's my mummy... hahaz... anw.. thanks mum... :) oh yar... guess wat... i know wat im allergic to le... at least i think so... itz this beannie thingy that my mum used to cook with doufu that day... so prob not exactly the fabric... but the beannie and fabric that's why so bad... haiz... aunty said could be my enzyma attack... hahaz.. wateva it is... my skin looks abit better today...

last night i did something that made me feel so bad... hmmm... yeah... about D... i was so mean... i mean... to tell him juz b4 he's leaving for taiwan eventhough i knew he's kinda emotional type... haiz... felt so bad... but i guessed itz better this way...

last night got to chat with kenneth... quite a nice guy... hahaz... he clicked on me and went hi. and there was this longggg period of silence after i hi back... hahaz... den like stucked for quite long b4 he asked me if i like kids... hahaz... den we started chatting... din talk much... got to know abit more about him... itz good to make frenz... hahaz... :)

okie.. shall end here... bubbye.

2006-03-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

::updates::

fri: wat did i do... hmmm... nvm... nothing impt... taught that night... kids alright thou again i had a hard time trying to get christabel to settle down and test her italian terms... went to see the doc b4 that... got a stronger cream... the strongest in the clinic according to the doc... funny thing the doc said b4 i left the room... 'try for 3-5 days if it dusen work den come back again k,' doc said. i smiled, almost wanted to add on... 'uhh... but i've already got the strongest cream from ur clinic. wat else can u gimme??' hahaz... wateva.

sat: busy busy day... but fufilling... :) theory in the morning, followed by pratical later on... new teacher. new methods. new stuff to learn. things to change. stressed. after tat was the cc outing... i din know sembawang got a beach! hahaz... anw... itz quite nice there... hahaz... had great time there... got to know more about the peeps... hahaz... :) on the way back got approached by teresa to help play the piano... and since im pretty free.. hahaz... i agreed to help.

today: got up early in the morning... went down to bedok to teach... half day today so not too bad... den went for band prac... tot yinkwan will be there... coz someone said she attends band prac religiously... =p but uh uh... im alone and itz totally BORING... a waste of time... yawn... din learn much... or should i say.. din learn anything. hahaz... pieces abit too awful... nothing more to say... oh yar oh yar! i completed bobby carrot during prac... something productive... hahaz... den h.s.h for dinner. gg off to ahma's house later to warm the seats there... yawn.

next week schedule:
tues: teaching at night
wed: disney on ice!!! *grinx*
fri: teaching at night
sat: teaching whole day. dinner at night.
sun: piano lesson. band prac mayb. dinner with family!

2006-03-09T09:31:00.000+08:00

morning!

alone at home. haiz... tot at least sis will be home... but she's out till night... yawn... din go out with DG... better listen to mei...

nothing to blog about but im bored... better think of wat to do.. got a long day ahead..

top most is to prac my pieces... sat is my first lesson with this pretty strict piano teacher... but will... she's experienced and she's a grad from uk... so i supposed i can tolerate her shouting at me... musicians got weird temper... hahaz.... juz like me. hopefully i can stand her raising her voice at me... i hate it when people raise their voice at me... hahaz...

next... mayb i should start my next canvas... already know wat to draw.. so now is when i should draw it on... hahaz... but once i start on it... i'll prolly be stucked till im done... so till im satisfied with my pieces first... hahaz... one thing at a time...

next... revise my theory and finish up '03 papers... yawn... 2 more papers still... boring... i hate theory.. dun even think im coping well with seven my teacher's thinking of gg on to eight... too fast manz... no no... but den again im taking eight this year end.. hahaz... so better hurry... hahaz... so contradicting...

wat else... mayb i'll go down for a walk later... today's weather pretty good for a nice walk... hahaz... and guess wat? i got to catch the sunset yesterday... sat at the roof garden... and it was reali a pretty sight... the nicest thing was to have someone juz next to u... heehee... and there there... one wish came true...

2006-03-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

i was pretty upset today... pmsing... but im totally alrite now... not sure about u...

anw... was reading an email from mel... thank you gal! *muackz* :p

realised there's lotz of things that i expect something out of... i wan this. i wan that. but who am i to decide how things should go right... im blessed enough. yes. i feel loved. sorry about earlier... *hug*

okie... back to something else... anyone interested to clean up mangrove swamp on the 18th, 1st april and kan rmb the other date... anw... anyone interested tell me k... den go together.. hahaz.. but it'll be tough and dirty...

2006-03-07T10:14:00.000+08:00

life's all about making decisions

industrial design vs psychology

4 years vs 5/6 years

meanwhile... decide...
1) meet daryl on thurs?
2) go for class gathering?
3) go for band prac?

2006-03-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

hello!!!

okie... so where's ur books? take them out for me??
do u wan to do theory first or pieces??
okie! let's do that den. :)

1 2 3 4.... nope... let's try again... 1 2 3... ahhh... no no... let's try again... 1............2........ erm... its alright... we'll try again... :) :)
uh uh.. that's a F#.... yup... good.... ahhh... F# rmb?? good.... hey hey... F#!!

black one is crotchet.. 1 count... the other one minim... 2 counts... ok??
*nod nod*
good. :)
so wat is the black one? :)
....ehhh... 4 counts??
nope... let's try again... black one, 1 count. not coloured, 2 counts. so wats the black one?
.... 3???
:) :) :)

okie... rmb to prac alrite? bubbye!! :) :) :)

oh hello!! wat shall we start first?...

hahahaz....
that's my day...

2006-03-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

di di dum dum

tell me about me

http://kevan.org/johari?name=xiaoning

2006-03-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

harlow...

had lunch with joc today... hahaz.. went to eat rabbit... hahaz... sounds so funny rite... i got a shock when joc told me that... hahaz.. rabbit is the restaurant.... food there not bad... impt thing is itz cheap and nice... hahaz... :) den went back to office to settle my pay... miss the people... hahaz.. esp candy.. hahaz..

den went to lib to return books, down to art fren to check things out... den went wisma shop shop... din get my shoe!!! haiz... den met zonghan at paragon to register for my atcl... OUCH! paid in cash k... i'll live on bread and water soon... hahaz... den we shop around paragon... went to see some pretty cool furnitures, displays... hahaz... i found the tinkle heart keychain!!! thanks to zonghan... hahaz... love it... i'll get it the next time... hahaz... okie... den he walked me to fareast b4 he went off for driving... so nice of him.. hahaz.. thanks! so i walked around fareast for awhile den off to teach...

matthew is sick so din come... celine having fever so i go easy on her today... christabel.. my goodness.. always her... tried so hard to get her to do theory... haiz.. today double lesson somemore... but there's always solution... and the solution is to leave her alone in the room... hahaz... so i sat outside and peek in to check on her once in awhile till she completed her paper... hahaz... den home sweet home... :)

2006-03-03T10:16:00.000+08:00

oh manz... which school to go...

nus vs ntu

3 years BA vs 4 years BA(Hons)

psychology vs sociology vs social work

haiyo!!!

sis asked me to try out YST too.... hmm.... shld i?
(seriously no harm trying)

tell me how tell me how??

2006-03-02T10:12:00.000+08:00

harloW!!!

seems like so long since i updated... but not as long as SOME ppl... =p

hahaz... nothing much these weeks... few main things to highlight...
1) i failed my atcl (by 6 marks... wat d)
2) tues was my last day at work
3) i got back my As

for (1).. my plan is to retake it in mid year... means i have about 2-3 months to prepare... already got myself a pretty good and experienced teacher to guide me... that means money money... hahaz...

for (2).. i was pretty worried about telling the HR about quitting coz not too good that im quittin in less than a month... but my rash killing me... hahaz... so i did wat i think i should do... i prayed.. hahaz.. :) :) and guess wat... i din even have to say anything to my supervisor(also a C), i was about to tell her den she said she already settled it for me... hahaz... thank God... so i was able to leave my job IMMEDIATELY without 2 weeks' notice.. hahaz... how nice...

anw.. yesterday was the BIG day... so called big day coz we got back our grades... hahaz... anw... in the morning lynn joc and i meet up for prata... hahaz... we tried some funny pratas... hahaz...not too bad.... abit too oily though.. hahaz... but nvm... once in a while... den sang song for her... i mean i SANG birthday song to her loudly... ok.. pretty loud.. hahaz... joc, u muz be touched huh... i dun usually sing solo one k :p hahaz... anw... den we went back to central, met brendan there... hahaz... den talk talk catch up... went to the lib for awhile to cool off den back to school... hahaz... the atmosphere there was like pretty bad... hahaz... but i din get any panic attack till i sat in front of mong holdin the pen... hahaz... my heart thumping so fast... hahaz.. and mong's face was pretty much expressionless... anw... i saw joc's results b4 me and i tot i'll die coz im a pretty lousy student.. hahaz.. but guess wat... i did pretty alright... B-geog, B-econs, C-maths and guess wat... B3 for gp... hahaz! :) amazing... and u know wat... i tot i was gg to get worse grades coz onli 27.7% of the geog students got A/B... hahaz... that means im one of the 13 students... hahaz... :) :) :) ok... be humble. den for econs... another surprise man.. hahaz.. getting Os and Fs thruout... den a B!!! hahaz.... msNg was pretty shocked about my grades too... hahaz... yeah!!! :) :) den maths.. hahaz.. expected worse coz i came out of the exam hall crying... tot i'll screw it but ta dam!! hahaz... im mad... and the best was GP!!!! hahaz... im not good in GP but a B3 for it... im totally whoa... hahaz.... okay.... stop here... and see from the big picture... BBC B3... not a very good grade... pretty bad in fact.. way below mum's, dad's and sis's expectation i think... abit sad coz there wasnt a A... wat happened to my geog!! and BBC B3... how to fight with others who are taking the course i wan... hmmm... wateva... somehow things will work out. anw.. my grades not up not down i dun even know how i should react... so decided to be happy... sounds better... and for those who think i kan make it to uni, who dun like anything about me... well well... guess wat?? I GOT IN. (eventhough my grades not too fantastic) and IM going to DO WELL in there ok. so stop those 'everyday go out how to study.. better control her arhh..' and those 'B BBC... haiyo... can get into uni anot????' OF COURSE I CAN. i dun do as well as my sis(A AAC) dusen mean im any dumber k... at least i got other talents... not like U, left with that mouth of urs. hmph.
wateva. im being mean. sorry.

last thing before i end the entry.

THANK GOD! :) :) :)

and when im doing well help me to never seek a crown for my reward is giving glory to You.

2006-02-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

oh yar oh yar...

on speaker! my fave song *grinx*

2006-02-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

harlow!!!

heehee...

nothing to share... got a sentence thou...

"when u're discouraged, juz rmb wat to do- reach out to Jesus, he's reachin out to u." :)

good huh.. heehee... i tot so too... brightened up my day... heehee...

2006-02-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

basket

2006-02-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo

had the whole day to myself... hahaz... love the time manz... hahaz.. not tat i did anything productive.. but it beats rushing(for the train), squeezing(on the train), checking the time(for the bus), counting down(to the end of day)... hahaz... i got to do some sketching... play my piano... laze around, lying on sis's bed disturbing her... hahaz... love it! :)
job lobang for the coming two weekends... misswong the lady who got into some accident yet to recover so im asked to help take over her classes for the time being... but i turned down the sat onez... hahaz... work juz on sun... tiring to teach on both days... esp when the kids all at the those first few stages.... hahaz...

bo bo bo

received the letter that my piano result is ready for collection... manz... kan they juz send it to me... simple things like PASSED... OOPS! PLEASE TRY AGAIN... also need ben xiao jie to make the trip down... wat is this manz.. real bad service... haiz.

anw... think i'll need some retail therapy soon.. any interested party can come along... :) :)

2006-02-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

heyhey

not working today.. :) :) super tired so decided to give myself a day off... hahaz... slept around 1 plus den woke up an hour or so later with gastric pain... wat d... so was kept awake till around 4-5am before i fell asleep... so i got to stay home... anw... i was kinda bad lastnite... stayed out late den made daddy stay up to wait for me... got them abit angry.... not coz he waited but coz he's worried... den couldn't sleep... sometimes i really think im so fortunate to have such nice parents [thank God :) ]... my dad went to sleep only after i bathed... den i was about to sleep den mum came in to check on me and even asked if i was hungry or something den tucked me in...

anw... we went out lastnite, 3 gals(or 4?) and 3 guys(or 2?)... hahaz... =p typical gathering... abit boring... but not too bad lahz... got mao to entertain us... haha... zong not too bad too.. hahaz... went marche den partyworld... hahaz... yup... that's all....

k le... i'll update again... ohh.. the voting... juz yes no will do... :) hahaz...

2006-02-22T07:32:00.000+08:00

morning!

third day of the week... time at work seems more productive now... not that im super busy... but at least i'm given task that requires more time... but still brainless job... hahaz... anw... im still deliberating over whether to change a job... coz im still not quite sure if my rash was due to the dust... hahaz... and also coz the people are nice there so kinda bad to leave... and if i leave i may not get to work under such nice people... hahaz... so we'll see how... hahaz... meanwhile there's nothing special that i've done since i started work coz by the end of the day i'm half-zombie... hahaz...
okie... impt thing... results wil be out next wed!!! (tentatively lahz...) but still.... my goodness... haiz...
last thing... dinner with lynn peng and band guys.. hahaz.. so long nv meet up le... hahaz.. finally get to see peng after like sooooooo long... hahaz... :) :) something to look forward to for the day... hahaz...
okie! i'll go change and get ready... bubbye!! :)

2006-02-19T07:41:00.000+08:00

morning...

so long since i blogged... started work this week... pretty tiring... super tiring... coz i got nothing much to do.. ironic huh.. hahaz... coz i had to sit at this pathetic table and pretend im busy for hours with a few sheets of paper on my desk... top of that... i got this quite bad rash... little red spots on my body... yucks. itz itchy and it hurts... took pills no use... so went for a jab yesterday... ouch! rash still there but not as itchy.... hopefully it'll get well soon.... so disgusting. nothing exciting to blog le... so shall stop here... but before that... hey... can someone plz vote? hahaz... i've got a yes and no... one more to decide... :)

anw... some guys are juz jerks... think gals juz there for them to fool around... stop those silly big man ideas. hmph!

us gals rock.

2006-02-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

:: little red spots ::

woke up with these little spots on my arms and legs... and they itch. yucks... so daddy dropped mummy and i off at the doc... doc said juz enzyma and gave me some pills and cream... den im off to work... work... itz so so so BORING.... not that im 'working', i got to experience another form of boredom... anw... i took my own sweet time at work... so slow i feel as if retarded... i even climbed the stairs to drop off letters to kill time instead of taking a lift... i took almost 30 secs to strike off one page(yupyup... juz to draw a diagonal line across)... 20 times to 'chew' a mouth of cake... rewrite instructions for more than 5 times in different fonts and sizes... hahaz... all these so that i'll appear busy eventhough i've got nothing to do... manz... itz REALLY boring. yucks. so much for 6.50/hr... ha! anw... the effect of my pill setting in real soon... i can almost feel it... hahaz... so im gg to sleep soon... :) :) goodnight peeps!

oh yar... thanks dear for yesterday. :)

2006-02-14T07:48:00.000+08:00

morning! :)

up real early coz mummy tot im leaving with them... hahaz... anw... yesterday was the first day of work... not too bad... met joc in the morning... lucky got her around.. hahaz... anw, first day pretty boring coz nothing much to do.... did some filing, packing... hahaz... den had lunch with joc den we went shopping... hahaz... bad thing about workin in town.. hahaz... anw... i had a good day... :) and of course i enjoyed my time with u.

today the lady should be back so i supposed i'll prolly have more work... but itz ok.. hahaz... better den sitting around pretending im busy... hahaz... not to say that my table so pathetic i can hardly pretend... hahaz... =p

okie... i'll stop here le.. have a good day peeps! :)

oh yar!!! happy valentine's day my frenz! :) :)

2006-02-12T09:36:00.000+08:00

::updates::

fri: went down to the job agency to confirm my employment... met my aunty there... hahaz... den went to meet zonghan at ps... walked around... he bought his stuff, i got my paint... hahaz... den left for lesson... classes not very good today... but i guess i made my point clear to celine that she had better prac... hmm... as usual christabel was beyond... but thank God i was very patient to her... sometimes i wonder mayb i should juz scold her or something den she'll realise im not all that nice nice... but i think there should be other ways i can get my msg across... hmmm...

sat: started on my canvas.... drew a flower... had it painted... spent a total of about five hours to complete the whole thing... but not too bad... i quite like it... i mean first attempt u know... hahaz... yp was good... learnt about the importance of prayer... how it should be an on-going thing blah blah... enriching... din get to catch up much with mel thou...

sun: woke up early... later going out with mei to get present for dino... den band prac... den home for dinner... big feast tonight coz last day of cny... hahaz...

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2006-02-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

bad mood.

2006-02-10T08:59:00.000+08:00

i had a really good rest last night :)

2006-02-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

harlow :)

had a great day apart from the rain and the morning scare.... hahaz... went to meet gracia after her work den we went for the interview at kk... wasnt too bad... but juz before i got in, i got calls from cousin and joc, both asking if i want to take up admin job... hahaz... way cool... took joc's offer coz higher pay and i get to be with a friend.... hahaz... so tml i'll settle the kk side... hahaz... anw... went for NAFA open house after that... hahaz.. the place reali cool... nice little campus... mayb will try out here too... wanted to prepare for nus audition but guess wat... itz next month... so no chance le... hmmm.... wait till i get my results den see how bahz... ohhh... den i got myself another canvas to draw on.. hahaz... :) went to harbourfront for dinner den home sweet home... again back to the empty house coz the rest over there for dinner... lucky they back home early... i think im gg mad... hahaz...

2006-02-09T09:20:00.000+08:00

morning

very tired... been having nightmares these two days... yucks! din sleep much.... and guess wat... i woke up with one of my eyes red... later got interview lahz... my goodness... hope it'll look better later... and again... im alone at home... hmmm.... usually i wun mind but not today.... coz i had nightmares... hahaz... and waking up to an empty house sure is not a good feeling... :(

anw... went shopping with sis yesterday... she finally got the present... hahaz... after much deliberation... shoppin with her is so tiring... we went from bishan to novena to orchard... in let's see... abt 3 hours... hahaz... but nvm... i've got nothing to do anywhere and she's paying for my transport... hahaz... so she got him a watch... veri nice... coz i chose it... hahaz... =p after that i went for my haircut... talking about that... im still havin student price... hahaz... cool... :)

alright... talk again... bubbye!

2006-02-07T09:27:00.000+08:00

heyhey

itz been almost a week since i last blogged... hahaz... itz been a busy week....

wed: shopping with sis in town for men's presents... hahaz... got daddy his bday present, got u your present... hahaz... and of coz we got our own clothes too... hahaz... den went for band prac in the evening... boring... din do much but had quite a good time to bond with the percussionists... :) im loving this section... so prob i'll stay here le... hahaz... i guess i'll have to pick up learning all those fast...

thurs: stayed home the whole day... slept most of it away coz of the horrible headache... oh yar... finally had dinner as a family... haha...

fri: went over to ah ma's house early in the morning... juz sat there and make sure she's ok... so there goes my day... in the night had to teach... wasnt in a good mood so one of my students almost got to see me mad... hahaz... anw.. daddy real sweet... sent me there and picked me up after.. :) :)

sat: went to tampines to teach... from 9 to 4:45... yawn... veri tiring... but the students were all good... so made it easier for me... :) hahaz... not to say those adorable onez... hahaz... den had band performance in PP... not too bad... din play much anyway... hahaz... well... i got to play the cymbals borrowed from the lion dance... so paiseh.... hahaz... again.. daddy real nice... sent me to teach and picked me up from there to PP.... :) :) anw... went over to my uncle's place for dinner... spent the night crapping, playing carrom... hahaz... den my grandma fainted... my goodness... so the adults went off to the hospi with her... left the three wives and us... haiz... i seriously think the buddhist way is seriously weird weird... itz bad enough that ur husband died... and to think we all have to go down to pray on every 3th, 5th and 7th week i think so tat he'll have a better afterlife... there's little wonder why my grandma fainted that day coz the morning she cried real badly again at the temple when she saw his photo... haiz... somehow i wonder how's my grandmother.... kan go see her yet... according to the adults... so have to wait another month... wat d...

sun: taught the whole day as well... not too bad... the last student was this little gal... veri veri sweet... hahaz... okie... den went home.... again... i love my daddy!!! up early to send me there den came to pick me up.... where can u find one like tat?! hehez... this kinda guy extinct already... :)

yesterday: nothing much, but thanks for keeping me company... :)

2006-01-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

::updates::

yesterday was fun... let's see... met tex at three... got the tix for memoirs... not a very impressive show.. i expected more... music is nice of course... hahaz.... the show kinda boring... read the book... its better... :) anw... before the movie we went to the arcade... tex tried to catch a bear for me... hahaz... but the machine cheated... hahaz... tried a couple of time... complete waste of his money... hahaz... so i treated him to the movie.... hahaz... after that we went shopping for cds (his fave)... bought one myself... hahaz... den met the rest of the class... only 1/4 turned up... hahaz... eight guys two gals one galfren... three couldnt make it... anw... we were stucked with a bunch of army guys(tanned, muscular and botak), so poor yuki and i had to sit thru the whole time listening to their supposedly diff but almost similar stories... hahaz... weapons, meals, buddies in there... officers, training, ghost stories heard there... yawn... talked till about ten den decided to go over to tex house... reali dumb... we reached the stop and i decided itz kinda late so i better head home... so nice guys they are decided to wait with me... but i feel bad... so tex offered to drive me home later... so off we go to tex house... but haven even cross the overhead bridge our dear marvin decided to send his gal home... and yuki decided to go with them coz they stay near... so left 4 guys and one gal.... pathetic.. the others decided to go home... and so.... onli tex and i went home... hahaz... wat d... wanted to pop by kian's house to surprise him but he's not around.... anw, met the little cat we adopted in sec3... hahaz... big cat... and of course tex used it to freak me... but lucky itz kinda lazy so dusen walk around much... hahaz.. anw... tex's room pretty cool... there's a drumset... hahaz... but too late to play... den i left home... took a bus... coz u know wat... tex onli hold an army license... hahaz... i dun wan him to take the risk... so he walked me out and home sweet home... :) :)

that was my day... :) :) relatives all these coming over later... hahaz... another long, most prob boring and noisy day... hahaz... bubbye!

2006-01-30T10:19:00.000+08:00

heyhey

dinner at grandma's house was pretty bad i think... the adults hardly ate anything... coz my grandma broke down crying... think too much of a blow for her... and prob those memories... anw... she cried real bad and kinda fainted... hmmm.... she got the some of the ladies crying with her... quite bad... wat a way to start a new year...

first day of new year... woke up to a pretty good day... went to grandma's place in the afternn coz we kan do visiting this year... so spent the day over there... not too bad... watched a movie with them... den luffed like mad after dinner... hahaz... pretty tiring... good thing today... grandma looks abit better... prob should bring her out... think would be good for her... hmmm... anw... it was a pretty good day...

for today... im gg to catch a movie with tex... so long nv catch up with him... so will meet him to watch a show... den meet the rest of e4... duno who turning up... hope more gals... hahaz... okie... that's all for now i think... bubbye! :)

2006-01-28T10:26:00.000+08:00

::morning::

had an eventful day yesterday... shopping with sis at bugis... not much time shopping so we kinda zoom in and out... hahaz... that's her way of shopping... hahaz... wish i got more time to see see... hahaz... anw... had lunch together den went to bukitbatok for theory class... hahaz... talked more den learning... hahaz.. but itz ok... i dun like theory.. hahaz... den met mei to collect specs... and guess wat?? i met my aunty in the mall... oopz!!! (coz i was wearing pink)... hahaz... den went off to teach... productive lessons... good... ohh.. and a box of ny cookies from the company... hahaz.. :) :)

anw... yesterday after theory on my way to the station, i met two phillipinos tourists... asked me for direction to the station... so i asked them to come along since im gg that way.. den on the way discovered they are actually heading to sgh to apply as nurses... cool... except that one of them kept asking me whether im interested in nursing... offered me a book even... hahaz... anw... kinda funny to hear them praise about singapore... hahaz... but at least they had a good time here... hahaz... :) brought them to their destination den left.. we exchanged nos though... was thinkin now whether itz such a good idea to give someone i hardly know my no... anw.. consulted(haha!) sis and she said itz alrite lahz... hahaz... so ok lorz.. =p

okie.. new year eve today... but this year will be different... no celebration... no happy new year!! hmmm... kinda sad(not coz kan celebrate but...) but well... we'll be spending these days together as a big family... so i guess itz the same juz minus off those chinese deco and ny greetings... hahaz... okie... gg off now... hope dinner will be juz fine today... haven seen my grandma since last sunday... hmmm... alrite...

bubbye! :)

2006-01-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

::watz up??::

boring day... not exactly boring.. got to spend time with my mum... before she's off to ahma's house for i wonder how long... yeah... went grocery shopping with her in the morning.. den lunched den talked... hahaz... normal mum and daughter time... :) :) den i had a really good long bath... hahaz... *grinx* a pity not long enough for my fingers to get all wrinkled... =p heehee...

anw.. tml will be a long day... heehee... shopping with sis.. den off for theory class... den off to teach... thank goodness tml class end early... hahaz... 830pm... heehee! thanks to my little cute matthew boy... den again i'll have to make up for his class next week... hahaz...

oh yar... i think im sick... i hallucinated the night before siaz.... i tot i heard my grandpa... not him talking... but him moaning in pain... i got up thinkin i was dreaming... went out of my room and heard it again... and yeah... i kinda freaked... hahaz... u would if u heard it...

okie... im off to catch up with mei... like so long nv talk to her.. hahaz... bubbye!

2006-01-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

:: oh manz!! ::

woke up by a call at seven(!!!) from HI today.... hahaz... woke me up from my sweet dream... i was dancing in my dream u know... =p hmmm.. hahaz... anw... told me to get there before eight... my goodness... was given 3 classes today... my goodness... they are horrible... not horrible horrible... but juz so hard to control... more like they controlling me.... hahaz... so i was dying to get outta the class... hahaz.. esp the sec 2 Joy... my goodness... they are like dementors... hahaz... the second class was alrite... coz mrAngel appeared and save me from those noisy kids.. hahaz... he's reali cool... stepped in and the class quietened down.. hahaz... :) anw... the school reali funny.. said they'll call up again if they need me tml... so i'm supposed to be ready tml too in case they call up... so silly..

alright... shall stop here... bubbye!

2006-01-23T08:36:00.000+08:00

my my...

morning peeps....

nightmares lastnite... horrible... guess wat it was?? hahaz... i flunked my A'lvls! my goodness... must be coz been talking to mel about it... hahaz... anw... it's supposed to be coming out in 3-4 weeks time... which means i'll be going where i'll be going in about a month's time... which means i'll be wat im gg to be in future in about a month's time... chill chill...

got a msg from msG again about HI needing a relief teacher... they'll call later she said... so let's wait for their call.. if they asking me down for another interview... i'll prob turn down the offer... so sickening... and not like their school some big shot lahz... ohhhh.... im acting big... hahaz... nvm... i shall do wat keeps me happy... everyday is hope's day.. :) :) life's so unpredictable... so juz treasure the time and do wat u wan... so no regret next time... :) so i'll go partying... find a hunk and marry off... hahaz! i'll go on overseas cip.... i'll go bagpacking... i'll do wateva i want... anything i wan... anything!.. hmmm.. after i get back my results, after i land myself a job... yucks.

2006-01-21T09:09:00.000+08:00

::quick updates::

thurs: well well... din sleep much the day before... had to stay overnight coz the last nite... so anw.. the next morning everyone was pretty tired... and on top of that... itz the cremation day... haiz... we had the rite done... monk chanting, us following him.... kan help but weeped abit... but had to control siaz... so horrible... den had to follow the coffin and walked abit of distance before we board the bus to mandai... my dad cried... quite badly... the worse part was the cremation... everyone gathered in the viewing gallery and watched as the coffin move towards the fire... that was the most saddening part of all... den u hear everyone shouting for him... hmmmm.... tiring day.

fri: woke up early in the morning to collect the ash.. not much ashes.. more of bones.... yeah.. so each of us had to pick up one and put it into the urn... grandma broke down crying again... anw.. grandpa's urn is now placed at mandai... his new house they called it... back for lunch... den home for a short nap den off to teach... tired.

today: up early coz later had to go down to this temple to pray for my grandpa... seriously... itz pretty troublesome... wateva... im doing it out of respect for my grandpa... cancelled my class again... missing two lessons le... next tues had to go down to buonavista for class replacement... yawn...

2006-01-18T10:37:00.000+08:00

::morning::

yesterday was pretty busy... was serving the ppl... clear table, set table blah blah... anw... one spooky incident last night... the toilet was locked up for quite some time... aunty got suspicious and called up the police after knocking for quite some time... anw... the scdf peeps came and forced open the door and guess wat... no one inside... geezz... freaked those people who came by to pay respect... anw.. i think i'll prefer they found someone fainted inside den no one...
nvm... im gg off soon... gotta stay over night today... so i'll update some time later... bubbye.

2006-01-17T08:59:00.000+08:00

::updates::

fri: first false alarm... someone should scream at those stupid docs and nurses... got us all freaked and teary... i cancelled my classes and rushed down... sis left her class halfway and rushed down... night was super drama... slept around 3 plus in the morning(sis sent us and cousin back home)...

sat: woke up abit late... so we made our brunch... i cancelled my piano class coz too tired... den came the second false alarm... panicky as usual... we changed and rushed to hospi again... sis drove us... got there... he's ok le... and i missed my band rehearsal... haiz... nvm... too tired... so we stayed around till around 10 plus den went home... waited for our turn to bathe and everything and when im about to slp... the phone rang... serious... we get all tensed up each time the phone rings... my goodness... u guys wun wan to try it... anw... that goes our third false alarm... dad sped his way to tampines to pick my aunt and cousin den we zoomed back to the hospital... within half hour... but again.. once we got there... he's ok le.. not ok ok... but still breathing... with the help of those oxygen tank of course... anw.. we decided not to leave the place in case my grandpa decided to play such game with us again... so we 'camped' at the hospital... that night was horrible... freezing cold wind plus uncomfortable couches... we all hardly slept...

sun: doc did his rounds in the morning... told us he prob kan make it till late morning or evening... hmmm... like we duno he'll leave anytime... wateva.... so waited around... but i had to leave for band... so left around 1130... wanted to use some time to prac but guess wat audrey brought the bell home to prac... so i was stucked with aw for awhile... and yeah... i cried... not badly.. juz weeped... coz i asked him to 'shutup'... i cooled down den he comes back again.. haiz.. i know he's concerned about me.. juz like many others... but im ok. den msged sis around 3 plus 4 and asked about my grandpa... guess wat... he left around 1240 and no one bothered to tell me... yucks. they said coz i got performance and they din want me distracted... wat d... i would prefer they let me know.. or rather i din come down early.. den i could have been around with my grandpa... basket.

band performance wasnt that great... percussion screwed up.. big times... wenqin's drumset playing screwed... my latin gold screwed... audrey's abba gold screwed... go west also i think... anw... they said it was great.... ok lorz... great. but it sure was tiring to keep smiling...

went back to the funeral in the night... thanks for keeping me company... den stayed around till 11 plus den went back... got my first sound slp...

mon: went down around 11 plus... those adults abit like walking zombies... except that they are all luffing... either that or resting... and things they said dun reali make sense... not all lahz.. some do.. but the way they said is funny... nvm.. we understand wat they meant can le... so i sit around the whole afternn... helped around where necessary... collected money... flowers... served drinks... reminded almost each who sat at my table wat day it was... blah blah... den cousins came in the evening... so less bored... then the chanting started... quite tiring... and kinda i duno.. amusing... hahaz.. anw.. we gotta chant along and say wateva the monk saying... oh.. itz a buddhist kinda funeral... so no drama like my gong gong onez... but i prefered my gonggong onez... somehow... went home around 11 plus as usual... wanted to go back with daddy but they said itz alrite, asked me to stay home.. so ok lorz...

yup.. that's all for now...

2006-01-13T10:21:00.000+08:00

-harloww-

nothing much to update... hahaz... let's see.... about my job... im gg for an interview next tues.. my cousin's that job offer i rejected... so anyone looking for part time let me know ya.. :) wat else to update... let's see... ohhh... im gg to watch disney on ice! heehee... :) :) :) den let's see... my grandpa still the same... din get to see him these three days... tml shall go... ohh.. hahaz.. another amusing thing... mrD actually sent me a mail... mail as in thru mr postman... not email... this era still got people send letter like that... hahaz... nvm... anw... itz kinda too "ermmm...." for me... thank goodness im too busy to meet him... though itz kinda sweet of him i supposed... hmmm... hahaz... okie... im gg off... bubbye!

2006-01-12T10:17:00.000+08:00

-morning-

band prac lastnite was pretty tiring... but alright i supposed... the clarinet section sounds abit horrible though... mayb coz im right behind them that's why so obvious... hahaz... anw... dun have to do anything today... no instruction to go anywhere... so stay home... :) daddy juz came home den off to work... din even wan to rest... haiz... later fall sick how...

oh ya... got offered a job at beach road... forgot to ask for more details... but it sounds ok lahz... mayb i'll call back later to ask for more then see if i wan to take it or not.... the condo admin next week i'll prob go... call that guy later too....

grandpa seems alright yesterday... almost back to normal... sounds freaky... but mayb itz a good sign ya... mayb wateva that the doc injected into him is working well...

haven been goin down to yp for so long... kinda miss the peeps already... but each week something will crop up den i kan make it... yucks. like this sat... got band rehearsal... so gotta give it a miss... anw... sunday is the performance... heard the tickets not selling too well... and those peeps that i msged din reply siaz... wanted to get the cousins to go.. but now litat... think better not... k lahz.. stop here... bubbye.

2006-01-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

restin at home today... sis juz left... so alone at home for the whole afternn... would like to go down but daddy said itz ok, asked me to stay home...

hmmm... we lost him.. not lost lost... but those bad guys in there attacked his nerves.. so he hardly knows wat he's doing... should have seen him on monday... i got a SHOCK... how can someone of that much control and say suddenly becomes like tat... it's horrible... still can remember him smiling and bidding me goodbye when i left his ward on friday... juz two days and he becomes litat... he can't even remember who i am... though he called out my name on the first night... wished i was there to hear him call my name... itz reali sad... but had to control our emotions too... yucks. juz when i start to enjoy my time with my grandparents, things litat happen... the doc said he's reacting well to the chemo... but why litat?? oh God!

2006-01-09T10:37:00.000+08:00

morning :)

had a great day yesterday! heehee... was at my aunty house around 6:30am... den mummy helped to prepare the stuff while the other group preparing the 'props' to play with the groom when he comes.. hahaz... there's lotza bread stuffed with coffee powder, sugar, bittergourd, lime, wasabi.. hahaz... den red bucket and cloth, a long pole.. hahaz.... veri funny... the groom was so on.. hahaz.. they did the lion dance... hahaz.. red bucket over his head, red cloth over him.. hahaz.. den they imitated the sound and danced at the corridor.. hahaz... veri funny... should see the video... den he had to write a note to my cousin, sealed with a kiss... hahaz... he managed to get in after half hour or so... hahaz.. his eyes tearing from the wasabi... hahaz... den he kneeled down in front with my cousin's room and sing for her... hahaz... blah blah... den both of them went off to edmund's house... hahaz... dinner was quite fun(excpt that the hotel staff abit inexperienced)... i was at the recep and flower gal at the aisle later on during the march in... hahaz... there's a bit of screw ups... but alrite lahz... haha... the ambience quite nice... :) okie... den later played games on edmund and emily as usual... den edmund had to kneel down, hand holding emily and read out the letter he wrote early in the morning... hahaz... the letter so sweet.... :) :) heehee... anw... stayed around till quite late... hahaz.. but it was fun!! have to be there lahz... hahaz.. litat say not as fun..

anw... juz got a msg from daddy... grandpa abit not too good... tot i can stay home today coz later got dinner... guessed i'll make a trip down later... hmmm... mummy still slping... she's too tired... these few days abit too hectic for her... hmmm...

2006-01-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

hello

been having mood swings lately... mayb coz i din slp well/enough... hahaz... anw... almost lost my temper at christabel last night... she's like so... haiz.. nvm... den in the night i got abit too irritated with my roommate... i was tryin to catch some sleep den she's not being very helpful... yupyup... yawn... bought presents for peng this afternn... at least had some retail therapy... not too bad... but veri veri tired... hahaz... oh yar... good news... he's discharged... think things should get better... :)

anw... cousin's wedding tml.. bet she's too excited to sleep... hahaz... or too nervous... big day for her siaz... every gals' dream to have a perfect wedding... :) :) wonder how will it be for her... heehee... anw, have to get there six in the morning... yawn... should go slp soon... :) nitenite!

2006-01-06T09:22:00.000+08:00

morning

woke up real early(like b4 7??) thanks to those up early.. yucks... and i got this horrible pimple near my eye.. ouch! basket... wat a day... hope the rest will turn out well... dropping by the hospi later den off to teach... pretty tired... need a break!

another thing to say.... i seriously think they should tell him the truth so that he can enjoy wateva amount of time he has got... manz... so awful not to know... i mean... if itz me, i'll want to know how long i have so i can fufil wateva i have yet to do... instead of having the impression that im gg to get saved somehow... hmmm... and hiding from him?! itz so tiring.... on one hand, everyone is like on nervous breakdown... on the other hand, they have to pretend nothing too serious... u know wat i mean... take yesterday for eg... thank God i went over and that my aunt on mc... otherwise it'll be only my grandparents... anw... seeing them cry blah blah.. hmmm.. itz horrible... kinda like seeing my mum's side again... and walking past the icu, seeing those family members waiting outside anxiously... hmm... juz sucks... and although itz nothing reali serious... but juz a call that my grandpa is not well sent the whole family down... i mean whole... they were in the hospi within an hour... i can see they were all worried and scared... but in front of my grandparents they were like so nonchalant... manz... ok... wateva... the main thing is... tell him the truth!!!

gosh... enough of me... i'll go get a hot bath den off i'll go...

p.s. please pray for my grandpa...

2006-01-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

life's SHORT... learn to TREASURE those people around you...

2006-01-05T10:22:00.000+08:00

haRlow

decide to change my blog... new year new start.. :)

anw... dun have to go down today! coz aunty not working... hahaz... so i get to stay home.. but den think think mayb i'll go down for awhile... gotta spend as much time... nv know when u know... hmmmm... almost got all upset when i juz sat there looking at him yesterday... haiz... somehow i think itz really over le... like u know... hmmm.... but dun worry... im ok! :)

had band prac lastnite... wasnt too bad... we sounded pretty alrite except for abba gold.. hahaz... percussion that side.. ermm.. hahaz... im still trying my best at those accessories... lynn will know wat i mean.. hahaz.... =p

2006-01-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

harlow

had a boring day... spent the whole afternoon at my grandma's place... sat at the same spot from 12 to 6:30... finished up potter, did some drawings... swept the floor while they were in the room napping... yawn... tml will be another day... wat should i do tml?? hmmm... not that i dun care about my grandparents but itz reali boring... find a job soon or i'll be over there everyday i think... sis no better too.. hahaz... stayed in the shop... and as my cousin said... u juz sit there and look forward to lunch... after which u'll countdown to going home... hahaz.. interesting... but she's starting school next week!!! lucky her... den i may have to alternate see where need help... blimey... but itz alrite... all for a good cause. im alrite... :) :)

anw... announcements to make!!!!

the band i joined is having their first concert... not too wow wow... but do support ya.. hahaz...

details details...

date: 15th jan
time: 5-6:30pm
venue: potongpasir CC
price : 5 bucks

help me buy tickets ya... :) :)

2006-01-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

guess where i spent the eve? hahaz... u'll nv believe it... make a guess... :)

nope.

try again..

still kanot?? means u din call/msg me to wish me happynewyear =p

okay... i spent it at the void deck with my family and those fellows.. with those loud music if u call it music... real bored juz sitting there staring at each other... esp when im lacking enough slp.. hahaz... seeleng gets real horrible without slp... so i wasnt in my bestest mood though i tried my best... hahaz... serious... i was one of the 'entertainers'... but by nite time i was zombie.. got home around 1 plus... slpt right after i bathed... yawn... happppyyy neewww yeeaarrrr

today: whole family so shacked from the day before we woke up in the late morning... i wasnt feelin well so went back to slp after brunch.... den went to ahma's house... found out that he may not win the battle afterall... kinda depressing... i'll give up anything for him to stay around much much longer... but... hmm.... i'll pray and i'll stay happy! :) :)

2005-12-30T13:28:00.000+08:00

a brand new year is coming... so how can i start new year without...

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!!! :)

1) forget all that had got me upset

2) learn to trust in God

3) love everyone (and i mean EVERYONE)

4) learn to trust people around me

5) lose weight! =p

6) stop gossiping (haha!)

7) courage to tell my parents

8) still got time to think right... *grinx*

2005-12-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

morning!

good news: some things got settled.. at least i think so... now i know wat i'll do with u and u... though im not sure how im gg to deal with u... but somehow i'll find a 'gentler' way to do it... hope things will go well....
bad news: his condition not too good.. hope he'll win this battle somehow...

anw... yesterday's outing was quite fun... hahaz... the 'kiddos' were quite cooperative which is VERY good.. hahaz..makes my job easier... watched W&G... quite funny... the music is nice too... :)

that's about all.. bubbye!

2005-12-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

spent the afternn at grandma's place... pretty boring... watched the 2 gals play computer... den read abit den slack around... hahaz....

okie... talking about people around me... the guys are getting weird.. and i mean interestingly weird... never mind about that... anw.. we concluded that guys are especially nice to gals onli when they are wooing them... but soon after they 'got' them... things will be different... not entirely different... but slightly different... but of coz there's alwaz exceptions... the WE refers to mei and cousin... hahaz... anw... mei said im too soft.. should get angry and make myself heard when one wants to(like dino and piglet) so that ppl around me wun take me for granted... hahaz... easier said den done... anw.. i tink i like the way i am so far... watz wrg?? :)

okie.. cousins' outing tml... big headache... so hard to get 7 people out... haiz... hope it'll turn out all well.. hahaz... lunch+movie... :) heehee...

2005-12-28T08:57:00.000+08:00

read about this earlier...

"And their eyes were opened, and they knew him; and he vanished out of their sight." LUKE 24:31

All along the way Jesus had walked with these disciples, pouring the warmth of His spirit upon them but they did not recognize Him until the moment of His vanishing out of their sight. It is the same with us and many of our best blessings. We do not recognise them till they are taking their flight. We do not prize health till it is broken. Our common privileges we do not valur till something deprives us of them.

It is the same with our friends. We do not see the beauties of their character, nor perceive their real worth, until in some way we have lost them. This is specially true of the friends who are nearest to us in our own households. They seem to us commonplace, coz they are always moving before us. Their help is so perpetual, and their ministry so unbroken, that we do not learn their value to us. But some day one of these friends vanishes out of our sight. The familiar form is seen no more. The voice of tender love is heard no more. The quiet, gentle ministry ceases. Tml we miss the friend; then in the vanishing we learn what he was to us.

taken from the article for today from the daily bible reading

2005-12-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

heyhey

got over my monday blues... dun know exactly why i got upset but certainly itz coz im troubled... worried about him... troubled over u and u(give myself more time to decide)... frustrated with myself... but dun worry... im ok... :)

spent Christmas with my family(not exactly all coz my dear sisters all out spending this special day with their special one =p) this year... it was alrite... planning a cousin outing this thurs... ooohhh.. so exciting... =p hahaz...

plans for this week:

wed: ah ma house for the afternn.
thurs: date with cousins. :)
fri: band prac in the evening.
sat: family day. prob countdown in the night.
sun: new year!!! no plan yet though. haha!

2005-12-26T10:07:00.000+08:00

so fast... Christmas over?! hahaz... another five days and the year will be coming to an end... seems so fast... hmmm.... many things happened this year... good things, bad things... bad things that comes from supposedly good things... i duno... hahaz.... hmmm... itz been quite an eventful year i'll say... nvm... things kan get too bad... stay positive! :)